I've been reflecting on this, these ideas and "grokkings" (do you know the word "grok" from Heinlein's "A Stranger in a Strange Land"?) that come from
a hard fought spiritual struggle and repeated crisis, and triumphs, pitfalls and triumphs, over the course of 22 years now - since I embarked upon the
journey after deeply grokking, meaning to eat or to drink most fully of an idea that it becomes well, eaten, drank, & fully integrated, perhaps even
after excreting and urinating the unworkable & flushing it down the drain, a book called "A Road Less Travelled, a new psychology of love, traditional
values and spiritual growth" - and now, part of me wonders if we ought to have talked more about the greed, the cruelty, the hatred, fear and
loathing, stupidity, ignorance in all of it's many forms including IN-Civility, which more often than not arises in the midst of what began as a
simple misunderstanding! - which leads me past the sins of the world, really, or other people's ignorance, but stopping in it's tracks - at our OWN
family of origin, & the sins of the father going back through wars and many generations of struggle & hardships, as well as triumphs and
tribulations.. out of which we emerged, and I have to ask the same question, is this womb of history from which we're born on earth our real birth
place, or was it maybe just the testing ground of the Hero's Journey? What happens in the triumph at the end of one beginning and the beginning of a
new one, are we not born from another place? The way of the cross suggests in no uncertain terms that we are definitely mired in it, of that there can
be no doubt and don't we all have our scars? But like I said before, the allegory is operative as a universal principal of new life and resurrection,
the good life & it is into this life that we are called to have the courage and the audacity to live into..
But there, right there at the alter so to speak, must we not go reconcile with our brother and sister, aunts, uncles, siblings, mothers, fathers,
grand and great mothers and fathers and so on and so forth, unto, presumably a kind of larger family in so far as we all share the same one ground of
all being and becoming, but in so far as we heal our own family with the sword of truth and in who we are being and becoming by virtue of simply being
and becoming what we SAY we are, in the sight of others but only once reconciled we heal. If we touch, move & inspire them, with who we are choosing
the be & become in a domain or field of limitless possibility - do we not right there function as the extended hand to join us? How compelling is
that? Often we make amends to these people, while using the 5 C's of Life Transformation:
Confidence (winning theirs via a point of common interest, or even a shared predicament as it were), Confession (ours to them, trusting in them, about
something that was costly to us in our sharing and confiding), Conviction (theirs, that they too can have this great burden lifted, and must unburden
or do likewise as that which you honored them by trusting, sharing and confiding), Conversion - theirs, not ours, even if we are the ones making the
amends and they on the side of receiving it, although we're certain participants in the Conversion experience, having already been put through the
ringer so to speak, ourselves, which they can clearly see and intuit - incl'd our triumph.
In so doing what's done is done in God!
Therefore maybe Jesus was right when he said he also brings the sword relative to the family.. provided we understand what that means, and that's it's
pointy & double edged.
This doesn't mean that we divide and separate except maybe to unify, one to another hand in hand, having taken the beam out of each others eyes!
Then and only then can we deem to create a new world and lo and behold is that not what happens when we approach our deeper issues in the context of
our lives & our family of origin relationships, in some cases truly beloved, in others, um, not so well loved.
Our problem it has been said to be an action, or something that we are DOING at each and every moment in time, for the most part working very hard to
PREVENT ourselves from having an authentic spiritual experience... what is this action we are performing, and this personality that's doing it, more
often than not on autopilot or based on some very hard judgements, not the least of which might be a very low opinion of one's self &/or that of one's
fellow man - the WORST!
The duality of judgement that cast us from paradise, which would place us in the seat of judgement - that hasn't worked out so well now has it? Let us
therefore turn to the very LAST page of your Bible or one at the bookstore, and consider what is rendered there in the Spirit and the Bride extending
freely, the living water of eternal life for all who thirst. For all who thirst. (it needed to be said twice).
This is funny!
Who would not want to give this gift to their fellow people, loved ones, hurt ones, estranged & lonely for no reason, if they only knew how. 5 C's,
there you go. That was from a "New Thought Movement" of the 1930's called "The Oxford Group" (from which eventually sprang AA, if only because Bill W.
was unwilling or unable to live up to the standard of the four pillars of "Absolute Honesty. Absolute Purity. Absolute Selflessness, and Absolute
Love" because he wasn't prepared to either quit smoking or give up his love of women - and good on him. "Sin with courage" my wonderful mother once
said. I couldn't believe it, my own mom saying such a thing, but I think I get it. It's not an open invitation to engage in debauchery, but the simple
awareness that we are all human & we all make mistakes, but to go easier on ourselves. "My yoke is easy & my burden is light".
So you'll note that there's some homework for you in this post, a kind of experiment in the area of reconciliation.
"Leave whatever offering you had for the alter, and go, reconcile yourself to your brother FIRST!" Ah HA, now we get you Jesus what you were SAYING
(2000 years ago now - not LONG)
Oh the joy, the love, and the humor in this, the mirth, the charm the playfulness.
And the courage, but it's not so bad it could be worse (if we did not reconcile or do the work of self forgiveness), if we would rather live in
misery, and make everyone else miserable in the process and be made miserable by them. That's not the yeast in the dough. It's the DOH! I blew the
opportunity of a lifetime, and of an entire cosmological history leading inexorably only in one direction - LOVE.
If you do this thing, then you will stand relative to the whole of it all & know yourself as a child of God as if for the first time, and you will
cry, and then you will laugh because it's the joke that just keeps on giving, and then it's like we kind of look up to God and say "Abba" or Daddy, in
the familiar, seeing and understanding at last that God is a loving hand, and a light to our path & a lamp unto our feet!
This is King David level stuff, and Jesus level.
So go, and be the thing you want to and are meant to be, and even if you can't do that, rejoice in who you are as a sacred being and child of a loving
and very generous and very funny God.
I love you, love you as I was first loved by God, and for no reason (trust me!). That's the funny part about it, you see. It's an umerited Grace. If
you truly understood it it would make you cry right away, then laugh. It happens. lol
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