posted on May, 6 2018 @ 03:17 AM
Apologies for rambling.
Went to the doctor a little over a week ago. I'm not a lard, eat pretty well (seriously, not just saying that) but my blood pressure was through the
freaking roof. I think a bit of it was white coat syndrome, a bit was that I had to get blood drawn, but either of those were not an excuse. It was
so bad that she told me I would have to go to the ER if it didn't drop a bit by the end of the appointment. I seriously hate getting blood drawn,
and always get flipped crap because I have two half sleeves. It's not the needles, it's stealing my delicious essence. Blood doesn't bug me, but
letting someone stick a needle in the crook of my elbow grosses me out.
I had been on a bit of a bender. I was drinking about a fifth of vodka a night, and when I say about, that's because it was a little more. Iwould
sayfive nights a week. She asked if I blacked out, I don't. Asked if I was hungover, doesn't happen, just laziness and liked a little more sleep.
Scared the crap out of me. Quit drinking, monitoring BP. I was seriously scary high, like 170/120. Haven't had (save for tonight) in ten days,
down to 130/87. Longest I've gone without getting drunk in at least 5 years. Nothing else really changed. I've also dropped ten pounds, a lot of
which has to be water weight.
I don't really get cravings, and I don't have the shakes. When I first started drinking it was to cope with anxiety, and it became a habit. After
a certain point I would have to drink more for the same effect, and that led me here.
I started drinking tea at night, not really as a replacement for the alcohol, more as a replacement for the ritual. Might not make sense to everyone.
When I quit smoking the thing that bugged me most was losing the ritual. Go outside and smoke after a meal, first thing in the morning, last thing
before bed, take a break and go outside for a smoke, smoke before a task, smoke after a task was completed. It was a weird punctuation in my day to
day.
I'm really liking chamomile tea, and would love to try some more stuff! I'm fairly sensitive to caffeine, so would appreciate things without it for
night time use, or things with a mild amount for mornings.
I do not have a refined palate. I can't taste the subtleteas (I know I'm not funny). I picked up the chamomile on a whim after staring with a
blank expression at the massive wall of stuff at the grocery store and noticing it had a "caffeine free" banner. I want to like green tea, but I
get an almost fishy taste from it. No idea why. Only one I tried didn't give me that after taste, and I can't remember the brand.
Don't mind if you suggest something loose leaf or bagged, only real stipulation would be that it's something I could buy from Amazon or in a store.
If there's something that actually offers health benefits and tastes good, AWESOME!