I am a Project Monarch Victim.

originally posted by: NarcolepticBuddha
a reply to: Soulece

It's weird. When I google the username, I literally get one result and it is this thread.

I get multiple. One very particular website caught my eye. Which explains the topic of this story.
It's either exposing actual backstory in an alternate way because the two piece of info her line up, or its sexual fan fiction.
I dont know which is worse.
Google gave me a lil more info. UK. 36. But these two do not matter, just saying your google-fu lacks

To play the devils advocate, who knows, could be just an identical username.

a reply to: Soulece

I think google just lacks.

They tryin' to protect me from conspiratorial research and sheet.

originally posted by: NarcolepticBuddha
a reply to: Soulece

I think google just lacks.

They tryin' to protect me from research and sheet.

Your safe search must be on, I bet.

OPs experiences seem real in a way that something bad has happened to her. I only raise doubt if the memories of her experience as they were. I guess that OP has stumbled upon a string of bad people and her mind is imagining in the blanks to make sense of all this. I doubt that these people were all in some organization of torture. There could be something going on in the spiritual level, where the lines between reality and imagination aren't so clear. But the story makes me believe that in this objective reality, there is no conspiracy here. Just bad people doing bad things to someone in a weakened state, who has trouble distinguishing imagination from reality, and inner dialogue from outside voices.

I have been lurking this forum for a long time finally feel compelled to speak up. I have a friend who describes very similar situations to yours and I have some questions for you.

Did you ever believe you were in any real danger when waking up or was it just all of the psychological torture and mind games?

Did they begin watching or following anyone you spoke with when you were starting to wake up?

I had to dig much deeper into her story on my own and found the names of a few of her abusers. I believe they are now watching me as well and are much more afraid of me than her, but may cause harm to her to stop me from burning down their castle.

originally posted by: eitea
OPs experiences seem real in a way that something bad has happened to her. I only raise doubt if the memories of her experience as they were. I guess that OP has stumbled upon a string of bad people and her mind is imagining in the blanks to make sense of all this. I doubt that these people were all in some organization of torture. There could be something going on in the spiritual level, where the lines between reality and imagination aren't so clear. But the story makes me believe that in this objective reality, there is no conspiracy here. Just bad people doing bad things to someone in a weakened state, who has trouble distinguishing imagination from reality, and inner dialogue from outside voices.

This is very plausible

a reply to: LoisLane1982

Just one question:

Were any frogs involved?

a reply to: NarcolepticBuddha

Well, I looked it up and finished with Margot Kidder (Lois) in a 1982 Movie called, "Miss Right".





kind regards,

bally

originally posted by: LoisLane1982

There is also a man named Michael Aquino that was used in programming me.

I remember a long while back, perhaps a couple years ago, when I would frequent here more often and they would have Ask Me Anything's semi-frequently that was one of the people on this website. If I recall, and I could be wrong, he said he was a Satanist that doesn't believe in God or the Devil. But I also do recall that he had ties to the government in some way, perhaps the military. That was a while ago, and I don't have that good of a memory of something I just read in the passing.


As far as the woman being a demon. She was a real human. She was not a demon. Fallen angels were stripped of their ability to materialize as humans when they returned to the spirit realm during the flood, where they await chained in dense darkness.

And notice that whenever the supernatural is brought up there is always the stain of sexual harassment with it. That is because the angels fell from heaven because of their grave sexual perversions. While they walked the earth they fulfilled their lusts and lived as gods on earth, taking all the women they wanted and procreating with them, creating a hybrid offspring of giants.

From these men of fame who are of old do we get the myths and legends of the gods and goddesses and demigods of the Greeks and Egyptians, etc.

They still exist and they still hold influence over the world. The Bible says that they emit a spirit of rebellion and disobedience, and that their mental disposition has affected all of mankind alienated from God. They are also still sexual perverts and will try to get as close to their sexual perversions as possible. They are the spirits behind pornography, child porn, homosexuality, pedophiles, and all the rest of the perversions.

Why the Bible even states that the demons would get false Christians to teach people not to marry each other, knowing that inhibiting their natural nature God has given them to marry and copulate would lead to great sexual perversions, and such is the case in the Roman Catholic Church. Too bad they follow not just man made regulations and traditions, but outright teachings of demons to the determinant of innocent people and so many!

Sexual abuse is much more common than people tend to let on. It wouldn't surprise me if everyone on planet earth has not been sexually harassed in some form or another.

Everyone is openly exposed to God with whom we have an accounting. And he will repay each one according to this works. He is also a refuge for those who call on him for help.

Everything will be revealed. There is nothing that will remain hidden.

Find solace in in comfort of God. He will not tolerate wickedness forever. Indeed the Bible is replete with examples where he personally intervened in human affairs. The flood is one such. What about Sodom and Gomorrah, when he destroyed those wicked cities because of their great badness.

What of the hatred he had with Babylon. Babylon was so wicked and haughty Jehovah personally opposed her and told her he would destroy that city wipe it from the face of the earth and make it so no one would ever inhabit it again. It was once the world power. Babylon was once the center of the world. It is now desolate and for thousands of years is a heap of rubble and has not been inhabited.

People say, where is God? He is not watching! He does not care. But he is watching, and he is warning. And he will act again soon, just as he has done countless times in the past. Let no one fool themselves thinking he has changed, or imagine that while they consider themselves clean in their own eyes, they have not been cleansed from their own filth.

The account in the OP sound like family abuse, and one can infer involvement in the occult. The mind of such people have been tainted. PTSD is a mental disorder caused by such traumatic events. Sexual abuse and demonic activity, along with no doubt, verbal and emotional abuse at least. These things cause lasting scars that will never fully heal.

Flee from the occult and all forms of spiritism. All of it is in the purview of Satan and his demons, and they are not your friends. They will harass and mentally abuse you. They will use deceit and subterfuge. But the end they want is the entrapment of your mind and the destruction of your body. They are wicked beyond all human comprehension of evil.


Humans were not created to live in the enviornment we live in. The human mind reacts badly to trauma because God did not mean for us to live through it. Even good men who go to war who fight for what they consider a good cause can return entally scarred for life.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

if you know names that you can name, report it to the fbi, you may find doors that were previously closed there, are now open.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

After reading your thread many times I have come to the conclusion that you may suffer from a severe case of PTSD. After an event that causes much stress and that event being repeated time and time again can bring one with PTSD to make sense of it all with a fictional event or events. Also a large portion of those that suffer from this severe PTSD have a family history of schizophrenia and alcoholism. Do you know if that has or is happening in your case?

I would also like to add that drinking is a great coping mechanism when used properly. Just make sure to never lash out or become sad. When those happen it is time to stop... for the night at least. In everything I have said I do not wish to upset you in any way just want to inform which I am sure you have heard before.

Kindest regards ALLAROUNDYOU

a reply to: LoisLane1982

What did the demon look like, did it have a body?

a reply to: LoisLane1982

MK ultra has been a subject i've researched on for quite a few years now. I know what they try to do with the subconcious mind and how they split personalities.

I have a few questions. Can you describe any nightmares that may be linked to what you went through? What were they like?

Have you had any "supernatural" encounters? if so, can you describe the experience?

Have you ever heard of Remote Neural Monitoring?

Sometimes T.V shows like "Stranger things" can speak many truths in forms of fiction. Not sure if you have watched that series, especially with regards to "the upside down" realm. How would you rate this show on a scale from 1- 10 in terms of truth?

Aside from that, in technicality, the great majority of the population that watches T.V are affected by MK ultra type programmings. Would you agree that T.V shows and many music today are part of MK ultra social programming?

Would you say that the following Series of videos are accurate in terms of information?
(Sex Kitten Programming)


(Switching, Triggers and Victims)


(Monarch Programming)


Sorry for the bombardment of questions. I know that this could be a traumatizing experience for those who are directly involved. But I at the same time, this information can be useful in terms of raising public awareness.

Welcome to ATS by the way.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

Not only believe in God... But believe in yourself. That fact you've come forward in many ways signifies that you've made it through to be able to tell your story. Don't stop talking about it.

Truth will set you free... and we will listen.

God bless Ms. Lane... Peace will find you in time.

Best, MS

originally posted by: IgnoranceIsntBlisss
a reply to: Sublimecraft

Its widely surmised that MKULTRA was heavily influenced by the Project PAPERCLIP Nazi's.

Thing is MKULTRA ended in the 70's, for all intensive purposes.

Maybe in the states but elsewhere it carried on

a reply to: LoisLane1982

Nope. When the programming fails they always terminate the subject. Always. Always. Always.
No exceptions.

So why are you alive? (Hint: here's the part where you make some outrageous claim as to why they can't just kill you.) They don't waste resources on a failed asset. They just don't.

Honestly, they actually like it when an experiment fails. They get to move on to new young subject which is fresh and exciting to them. Old subjects are old and boring...and disposed of.

Fake

I do not doubt your story for a second.

I was at a friends' apartment once when his friends daughter (about 6-8 years old) started pole dancing on my leg- I pried her off and she started talking about naughty photos on her mothers phone. After her and her obvious dropkick mother left I asked my friend "did you see that?" and he simply replied "she probably needs a father figure" end of discussion.

I thought about the occurrence for hours and I swore she had been groomed for...services. I know kids are playful and will latch onto your legs, but this was an overtly sexual act. I couldn't believe it, she pretty much tried to dry hump my leg before I pried her away.

My story leads me to believe in your story, and I hope you can find some peace.

Yeah, think of a bunch of snakes sliding through "skin" or consciousness trying to maintain their "itch" while avoiding getting stuck between a rock and a hard place.

The fellow they were wanting to mirror you with is the good/evil clone nonsense; like splitting a brain or personality between two families like a guitar string to twist and tune how they want too... to pile on whatever hate, greed or ignorance they can.

Those families are junk in my opinion; garbage and a waste of space.

Think of being a rope or cord and they have tied various knots in it that you are unaware of; that you have to untangle to be whole again.

Well here's the easy part; that space between thoughts... make it so very vast that nothing they try to program in there sticks. As the last thought you have enters; hold the tail end of it as it trails off into infinity... keep doing this until that blank spot gets so wide and so vast that to jump from one side to the other; none of them could ever make it.

To be honest that frustrates the hell out of them; so much so they bring all sorts of psychic potentials and wave lengths to attack you, gang stalk or whatever... dont be concerned as it is just a huge branch of stupidity trying to manipulate life and control it and then leap into it with OBE nonsense as their OWN.

Hey in unawareness they do that already; in awareness one can come to know exactly what they are trying to do in creating that husk to try to escape from. Like the rapey dolphins in Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy saying thanks for all the "fish" or children then hauling ass.

They expect you or that alter to carry like twin speak between each other like a node or mental map in twinning or that twin business. Cut the cord and how are they going to intone it? That's what cutting that string or chain/train out called "thought" does.

Seven binds in the body or "seals" first time they open it is complete bliss; however that is the body trying to heal itself from all of the damage at once; look up kundalini sickness. It gives one a huge brain dump of feel good; from all of that poison they injected in there... that is when the "psychologists" are then tasked to act like you are defective in your natural functioning. This crap started from social programming after WW2 and in the Korean/Vietnam era the free love folks having children shunning the systems of MAKE believe... as in forcing belief.

Basically your alter or however many they have made; including you are put into various states of conscious or unconscious and things are done to you and or them; when one of those webs fails they then start hauling it in; and well all life then starts getting nervous and trying to jump the net or web they have made... like the stupid old show called drag net... just the facts. Well lol they never had any facts just more make believe concepts to dangle carrots in front of to bait those more or less susceptible to their honey pots or holes to hive mind and herd in.

So hey they the heads of these; really really hate tattoos, because they feel like the skin is now messed up; in wanting to come clean... my body my right, my speech, my mind is exactly the truth... they dont want that to be the truth however. As control factors; the funny thing is, is that they cannot control themselves... the ego and appetites the greed and cravings for nothing anyone ever really needs to live; so when one finally encounters the "natural" flow of that state called nibanna that has nothing to do with grungy ass sell outs of music to work as a program for others in that program... see; we as "life" flow through all of nature including the elements.

Of course; those trying to control this nature of being; try to dam or damn it up in any way that they can; just to set up the stupid over and over or milk it as long as possible.

Keep all of your first tastes and do not let them know your favorites; as they will be used as addiction and marketing etc. like a bunch of cookie monsters over a circle jerk is basically all the internet is; trend this blah blah blah unique individuals thats what we all are except those trying to conglomerate as some stupid idea of a pure element, they can get back to that themselves but refuse to do that work involved; so they make other life their sacrifice instead.

Just stay with the last thought and grasp the tail of it as that is internal programming running it's tape as a script inside ones head; none of that is one's own "self" so do not mistake it to be. Eventually, the true self will present or basically remain "present".

That is the gift of life; the not gift... is all of that you as a pure being; they have already "unwrapped" as their own "gift".

Well, that is my advice being one of "those" jammed into it myself. BTW no need to ever be concerned or paranoid; the right to remain "silent" is universal doing so may irritate others; but they have no right whatsoever to break what is golden. That's the rule... having already broken it? They are the failures; NOT YOU.