I am a Project Monarch Victim.

I'm writing this post to share my story of being a victim of Project Monarch/MK Ultra. I woke up to my amnesia when I turned 31 years old and remembered my ritual abuse and torture. Before this time I had blocked out the memories of my programming and abuse. I lived dissociated prior to this in an alter personality. I was born into a satanic family and was sexually traumatized at around three years old which is typical. They do this to traumatize and dissociate at a young age to create the "puppet". I was abused mentally as a child and physically at times. When I was 16 I was acting out like an erratic teenager and got arrested for shoplifting makeup with a friend. I was brought to court and put on probation. When I went to see the probation officer he said I was mandated to see a child psychologist. He told me that when he met the child psychologist she creeped him out. They also brought in another boy from Jail that looked like me for child psychology as well. I have since gotten the records from the government and this was back in 1999. It lasted three to five months and ended in March 2000. When I met the psychologist she started off by grooming me with deception. She was extremely dark and sinister wearing sunglasses and tight black clothes. I didn't know what to think at first as I was only 16 and confused. The probation officer was concerned. I was at home one day before the session with the psychologist and my dad hypnotized me and molested me before I was to go. I was in a traumatized state. I was driven to the psychologist after and she snapped her fingers and I stood up and followed her. The probation officer saw this and asked her if I was hypnotized. She lead me into a room and (this is where it gets weird) she turned into a demon. She was not a human. This is when I expect people to not believe me. She terrified me when I was 16 and I screamed. That is when the "project" started. She tortured me and the other boy. She could make demonic manifestations and she also could be in more than one place at one time. There was a lot that happened. I was taken in for electroshock and surgery to put a camera behind my eyes. They made me recite bible verses while doing this. I was told I was a spy now and a bunch of other nonsense. I wasn't given much water or food during brainwashing. It was torture and I was being tortured illegally in a government building.
During programming my dad raped me and used a spiked sex toy on me to further traumatize me. After that was over they built me up using blasphemy of the holy spirit. They tried to make me believe that I was the "Queen of Heaven" and the boy was the "Archangel [snipped]l". They told me we would meet each other later on and he would be killed. I don't believe the brainwashing worked because I don't believe I am the "Queen of heaven". They were trying to make us believe we were angels during the building up phase of MK Ultra. I am a human. When they were done all of this they told me I would live a horrible life (which is true) get raped a lot (which is true) and meet the archangel Michael then he would be killed (it happened but he had a different name.)
After they let me go I was dissociated and traumatized. I didn't remember any of the programming but I knew there was something wrong with me. I thought it was from drugs. I changed myself and got healthier. I went to college and traveled. They used me to do mad science experiments on like having other people speak through me and pretend that it was God. There is also a man named [snipped] that was used in programming me. I was brought to a military base at 24 for programming where I was remotely forced to work as a stripper. During that time I was kidnapped and brought to a hotel room where another victim was waiting for me and we were forced to make porn. He was being tortured psychologically and was shown a rape video of me before I entered the room and he was forced to have sex with me. Members of the satanic group were there and were filming us during this. They always blame the victim and use their mind games to psychologically abuse people. I felt so bad for the man when I walked in. He was in a petrified state. I lived on the military base for a while and was flown back home. I met up with the "Archangel [snipped]" later on and they broke into my house to put cameras up to film us having sex. They are very perverted. They ended up killing him a few weeks after I met him and we were "trauma bonded" so it was devastating. They killed him in a set up car accident that was made to look like an accident but was actually a murder.
I was put in mental institutions to discredit me, after and drugged with enough pills to kill me. I was tortured in mental hospitals and almost died.
I did get a bit better at 30 and started to get therapy. I remembered some of the stuff that had happened. Then I remembered all of it at once. I remembered the rape at 16 and the programming.
I'm leaving out some parts because this post could be an entire book of things.
The satanic cults use a lot of technology and things like radionics and voice to skull technology to perform their blasphemy. There was a lot of technology used and I'm leaving out some of the other programming that happened with military. I was recently taken in for more programming where they used voice to skull and radionics to try to induce psychosis.
They want to preform blasphemy of the holy spirit and rape small children to derive their "power" because they are psychopathic. They want to make a little child feel helpless then build them up to become their God. They want to be like God. They want to be the gods of the earth.
It makes me sad and I have lived a lot of horror. I am 35 years old and they told me I wouldn't live this long. I'm sad for the man that lost his life and all the people that have lost their lives. We were tortured. This stuff has deep roots to the holocaust too. I still have the will in me to keep fighting for something or someone.

Not sure what to say to you, LL. It is a wild story... yet regardless of the facts of the matter... this is a sordid business you have been tangled in.

I will pray for you... whatever your motivations for posting this.

Be well, and get weller...

Peace to you

a reply to: LoisLane1982

I really don’t have any words for your story. I will say that is one heck of a story though. Thank you for sharing it.

So what exactly did they have you do for them?

Who got influenced?

😑

originally posted by: dasman888
Not sure what to say to you, LL. It is a wild story... yet regardless of the facts of the matter... this is a sordid business you have been tangled in.

I will pray for you... whatever your motivations for posting this.

Be well, and get weller...

Peace to you

Thanks for praying. I'm not sure what the motivation for posting it is. It's probably just because it is a lonely place to live. Thanks.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

Sounds like some child sex ring stuff and you'd just been passed from one pipeline to another, your mind makes up all kinds of strange things to cope with it because it's so outside of the norm. Edit: I'm truly sorry you experienced these traumatic things.

What will you do now?

Are you working, do you still speak with your family or do you have other people there for you, like a support group? Why did you come to ATS?

One more thing, maybe it could be useful to you or people reading this thread: Chapters 4 & 5 particularly. Studies on other similar cases.

pdfs.semanticscholar.org...

originally posted by: xuenchen
So what exactly did they have you do for them?

Who got influenced?

😑

It was for sex. They like rape, murder and torture. They use it to traumatize the brain and to control the person remotely through technology and black magic. They want to be God. They filmed a lot of dark porn too. The sadistic porn was filmed and sold. They make things like snuff films too.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

Just so you know... you DON'T need to defend your motivation for posting here. That you wish to do so, and want to share your story, and feel a bit less isolated... it is all good, Lois.

May Peace be with you...

originally posted by: geezlouise
a reply to: LoisLane1982

Sounds like some child sex ring stuff and you'd just been passed from one pipeline to another, your mind makes up all kinds of strange things to cope with it because it's so outside of the norm. Edit: I'm truly sorry you experienced these traumatic things.

What will you do now?

Are you working, do you still speak with your family or do you have other people there for you, like a support group? Why did you come to ATS?

Hi. Yes it is a satanic sex ring. I am currently unable to work due to PTSD anxiety. I am seeing a new therapist soon for support. I do work out all the time and take care of myself. I still believe in God and I have some family that I can talk to. I have two sisters but they were protected and not used for ritual sacrifice. I think I will be okay no matter what happens. I have learned some strong survival skills.

I came here because I was lonely I think. I know this is a site where people discuss secret societies and other things so I thought people might listen.

originally posted by: geezlouise
a reply to: LoisLane1982

Sounds like some child sex ring stuff and you'd just been passed from one pipeline to another, your mind makes up all kinds of strange things to cope with it because it's so outside of the norm. Edit: I'm truly sorry you experienced these traumatic things.

What will you do now?

Are you working, do you still speak with your family or do you have other people there for you, like a support group? Why did you come to ATS?

Hi. Yes it is a satanic sex ring. I am currently unable to work due to PTSD anxiety. I am seeing a new therapist soon for support. I do work out all the time and take care of myself. I still believe in God and I have some family that I can talk to. I have two sisters but they were protected and not used for ritual sacrifice. I think I will be okay no matter what happens. I have learned some strong survival skills.

I came here because I was lonely I think. I know this is a site where people discuss secret societies and other things so I thought people might listen.

originally posted by: geezlouise
a reply to: LoisLane1982

Sounds like some child sex ring stuff and you'd just been passed from one pipeline to another, your mind makes up all kinds of strange things to cope with it because it's so outside of the norm. Edit: I'm truly sorry you experienced these traumatic things.

What will you do now?

Are you working, do you still speak with your family or do you have other people there for you, like a support group? Why did you come to ATS?

Hi. Yes it is a satanic sex ring. I am currently unable to work due to PTSD anxiety. I am seeing a new therapist soon for support. I do work out all the time and take care of myself. I still believe in God and I have some family that I can talk to. I have two sisters but they were protected and not used for ritual sacrifice. I think I will be okay no matter what happens. I have learned some strong survival skills.

I came here because I was lonely I think. I know this is a site where people discuss secret societies and other things so I thought people might listen.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

I have long stopped ignoring people like you. I believe you all did go through something and it was terrible. What you guys are saying is not far from the truth.

I dont know if you are legit or just entertaining yourself with this.

I will say that if you are being honest, you arent alone. I dont know how much that helps, but know that the world has the will to witness what is happening now. The world is still confused though the clarity is growing.

My heart to you.
Hold it down.

Edit to add:
I am sorry that it is taking so long for justice to come to you guys.

I have faith that it will all be made right somehow.

originally posted by: tadaman
a reply to: LoisLane1982

I have long stopped ignoring people like you. I believe you all did go through something and it was terrible. What you guys are saying is not far from the truth.

I dont know if you are legit or just entertaining yourself with this.

I will say that if you are being honest, you arent alone. I dont know how much that helps, but know that the world has the will to witness what is happening now. The world is still confused though the clarity is growing.

My heart to you.
Hold it down.

No I'm not entertaining myself at all. I understand though. It's hard to tell on the internet. I'm being honest. I know of a few other people like me too and I feel for them.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

Welcome to ATS and I hope you find some friends here.

I hope that you take the time and read the document I just linked. You are not alone. I found it because I have had some experiences as well. It was mainly sex and porn as well (child porn), not sadistic, and not MK Ultra.

I was brought to ATS by a friend at the time to tell the story and they really scrutinized me too, lol, but I'm still here. So hang in there! And if you ever need to talk about anything I'm here.

I'd love to hear your thoughts on the document I posted one day.

originally posted by: geezlouise
a reply to: LoisLane1982

Welcome to ATS and I hope you find some friends here.

I hope that you take the time and read the document I just linked. You are not alone. I found it because I have had some experiences as well. It was mainly sex and porn as well (child porn), not sadistic, and not MK Ultra.

I was brought to ATS by a friend at the time to tell the story and they really scrutinized me too, lol, but I'm still here. So hang in there! And if you ever need to talk about anything I'm here.

I'd love to hear your thoughts on the document I posted one day.

Thanks. It doesn't bother me too much when people scrutinize me. I am used to being treated badly by people.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

A) I’m pretty sure MK Ultra ended long before 1982.


B) you should start writing short stories and get coinciling.

originally posted by: JoshuaCox
a reply to: LoisLane1982

A) I’m pretty sure MK Ultra ended long before 1982.


B) you should start writing short stories and get coinciling.

I prefer drinking beer.

a reply to: LoisLane1982

How do you know it was a demon? What did this demon look like?

Can we get some physical descriptions, please and thanks.

originally posted by: NarcolepticBuddha
a reply to: LoisLane1982

How do you know it was a demon? What did this demon look like?

Can we get some physical descriptions, please and thanks.

Well. I really dont like talking about that because it makes the other stuff sound unbelievable. I probably should have left that part out. She said she was the "wife of the devil."[snipped] I found an article on her about a boy she had been "counselling" and he ended up killing his sister shortly after. I wouldn't be surprised if she programmed him to do that.

Googling your user name brings up some pretty weird stuff, including allegations of making scenes at children's play places. What's up with that?