posted on Feb, 18 2017 @ 02:42 PM
I've given up, STOP!
Why can't a buddha catch a break?! What heinous crime of past life brings me such a dark star?!
Just when I think this day can't get any worse...it does.
I'm working. It's slow and miserable and I'm working in waist-deep snow.
Then I get a text.
You know I'm not a COMPLETE jerk. I have grown older and saltier lately and taken to drink. All in all I'm a decent heart with a rough shell.
I have once or twice made rude, offensive, hyperbolic statements regarding women, dating, couplehood etc.
There is a person who twisted my mind this way, and she has today contacted me for the first time in over a year.
The worst part, it made a thaw in the ice and feelings leaked out. The memory of her had calloused over. I was OVER her and moving on happy as can
Now I don't know how I feel. Confused and hurt and wanting to forgive and wanting to punch a clown doll or something.
Everything would make sense. I would know my place and direction. If only she stayed away, in the past.
Why would she contact me after so long? After such a messed up breakup?
Has someone ever done this to you? How did you handle it?
edit on 18-2-2017 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)