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originally posted by: schuyler
Ever since I have been conscious I have thought there is "something different" about myself compared to others. And the difference is right in that first sentence. I exist, and so does everyone else, but everyone else is an "other" because the Universe centers on me. I DO NOT mean that in an egotistical sense meaning I consider myself more pure or smarter than anyone else. That is clearly not the case as in many respects I am inferior to many people I have known. I mean it in a more technical sense. The Universe does NOT begin with you even though you may think it does. It begins with me. End of story.
I've have attempted to explain this may times, and I've never succeeded. It boggles my mind that no one else appears to feel this way or think about this. It's like they have no comprehension of the issue here, though a couple have been patronizing or tried to placate me about it--hoping I would just shut up, I think. I used to believe that in time whatever this was all about would be shown to me and the path would be clear. But I'm old enough now and close enough in age to my life expectancy that I'm thinking that's not going to happen and that I will be carrying this issue into the next realm unresolved. I don't think about this all the time, but it is a definite constant.
originally posted by: NWSaint
.. does anyone else feel like they are part of a much bigger picture, but can't really explain it ??.. I mean from simple daily activities as in inter-acting with other humans, to possible feelings of superiority that just can't be explained ??.. I swear, for the life of me, for the past 35 years of my life (since I was 17), I've always felt "something" that I really can't put my finger on.. Things that draw me to the skies at night, things that have me really try to understand ALL of the sci-fi that's tossed at us (literature, movies, books, media, etc.. ) & for the life of me (at times) I feel like I'm "this close" to understanding what I'm trying to figure out, but still can't.. I really wish I could explain these feelings in further detail, but it's more of a mental factor than anything else.. So to anyone else that has these inner feelings, please explain, because as of right now I don't know if I'm the only one that feels this sensation on a daily basis, or if there are indeed others with the same understanding/feelings..... thx!
Morpheus : I know..._exactly_ what you mean. Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know, you can't explain. But you feel it. You've felt it your entire life. That there's something _wrong_ with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there... like a splinter in you're mind, driving you mad.
originally posted by: Bhadhidar
I can empathize.
I am not less than anyone else.
I would not admit to being better.
I have always felt called to observe, until I began to feel that I have also been called to serve.
My history is seasoned with events that might be called "too coincidental" to be random.
Many of then I've detailed on these boards.
For me to now believe that this is all just perceptual bias would seem unforgivably dense.