Seeking answers - have you come across this before?

Hi ATS,

I wondered if anyone can think of another personal story which bears the same hallmarks as the one I will relate below. It refers to an apparent alien/demonic implant which is in the form of a worm-like being, which causes extreme pain at times, and which has an ability to affect my psyche in disturbing ways. I will relate a bullet point list of the context & the details, following which I would appreciate non-patronising discussion.

Thanks!


1 - At 17, found myself crushed by a weight of oppression & persecution, perpetrated by criminal agents, orchestrated by some secretive group which had connections to the UK government, but which was not controlled by the UK government.

2 - Being abandoned by friends, family & society in general, I began to search frantically for some sort of spiritual solace, leading me to read all manner of theories in all manner of books (it was before the internet was a big thing, and I didn't even have a rented apartment, let alone a computer..) I found lots of interesting facts, and managed to relate to some experiences (some OOBEs for example) - but I found no actual help. I searched by visiting groups such as the Hare Krishnas, but again, no support whatsoever.

3 - I was experiencing psychotic symptoms - hearing voices, and having strange experiences with dark, or demonic energies, which seemed to be messing with my head in a very specific way - I had sensed one of these beings somehow enter my body/mind at one point. I had already been told (as part of the organised persecution, by people pretending to be my friends for months leading up to that point) that Satan wanted me for his kingdom, to be of use in some way. At the time I had flatly refused, even though I was not a Christian until many years later.

4. Living in a bail hostel (although I was only 17, and had never committed a criminal offece - I was placed there by the local authority, allegedly because there was no room in any more suitable hostels) - I was still being persecuted in what appeared to be a systematic way, by other residents whom I suspected had been placed there deliberately to interact with me. During this time frame I was suffering serious depression, as well as the psychotic symptoms - I was drinking as an alcoholic would, starting the day with super-strength cans of beer & cider.

5 - I was going to sleep one night, and as I began to drift off (still conscious - I had felt only drowsiness until this point, and had not yet been asleep) I began to find myself paralysed, unable to move - I was in a hypnopompic state. At the same moment, the appearance of the room seemed to shift, and I felt like I had phased out of reality, but only very slightly - I could still see the room & all its contents, exactly like it had been before this occurred.

6 - A woman materialised sitting astride my paralysed body, in a sexual position. I couldn't see her properly, but could feel her weight, and as my arms seemed to come free of the paralysis, I could feel her hips, so felt i wasn't imagining things. Before anything further could happen, she leaned forwards towards me, and gave me a kiss. As my mouth opened for the kiss, a ball of gel, between the size of a large marble & a golf ball, entered my mouth. I was shocked & broke off the kiss - I felt the ball of gel quickly travel down my gullet into my stomach. As I realised this had happened, the woman disappeared, and I phased back into reality, fully awake (& terrified).

7 - Later that night, I began to experience a feeling of movement in my stomach area, combined with sharp pains. These came in fits & starts for a while, and I eventually managed to get a few hours' sleep. The next day, however, I was racked with pains most of the day, very sharp & pressing in the stomach/ abdomen areas, which seemed to pulse & combine with feelings of movement, like I had something wriggling around in my stomach. I was incapacitated for two days while this process carried on. At the end of it, I experienced long periods of repetitive pulsing movements in one particular spot in my lower abdomen, and I became convinced that something had been implanted into my body - a type of worm - either organic, or mechanical, or a combination of the two, I wasn't sure.

8 - I was harassed by one particular individual, to whom I had expressed I was having severe stomach pains. He laughed manically, for a long time, with a demonic glint in his eyes, and simply said: "It's Be-e-jebub". I had come across the names of demons in my research into spiritual matters, and while I wasn't sure precisely, I knew from the way he said it that he was referring to the name of a demon. Whether he meant that a demonic creature had been implanted, or that the woman/spirit who implanted it had been demonic, I do not know. Either way, he seemed to confirm that it was the result of demonic activity, even though there was a tangible physical reality to the presence of the worm-like thing which had been implanted.

9 - I have, for the past seventeen years, lived with many, many occasions, certainly a few times weekly, when I have become aware of the movement of this 'creature' inside my body. There are times when it seems to be simply moving around from one place to another within my abdominal cavity, and there are times when it deliberately causes immense pain, by repetitively pulsing and pressing against sensitive areas of my inner organs or abdominal wall. It tends to do this at night, and usually when I am experiencing problems with my sleep, whether because of nightmares, or sleep paralysis, or false awakenings from dreams, or OOBEs. I believe that in large part, this worm-like 'creature' has a role to play in creating or causing these horrible experiences. It seems that all of the activity is motivated in order to cause pain, fear, doubt & uncertainty, particularly regarding my spiritual faith (which developed a few years after the implantation experience).

So there you have it. That is the summary of the weirdest experience I have had, and as mentioned, I don't know of anyone who has experienced the same as I have. There is a key point to note - I have had, and continue to have, many other unusual, paranormal experiences in my life. I have experienced a lot of strangeness from my natural family, who have consistently persecuted & manipulated me since I was around 14 years old. There's definitely an occult aspect to what they do, and they have variously stated that I am a) genetically engineered, b) an alien, c) an unwanted burden, unloved by them. This has been careful, sneaky manipulation, and I have since learned that they have been using advanced neuro-linguistic programming & magical techniques on me since that young age. They appear to have been tasked as my custodians since birth. There seems to be some nefarious group in charge of the family's management of me. The aim seems to be to drag me down, causing me to become ineffectual, weak & self-destructive. They literally want me to commit suicide, and my 'father' stated that directly, when I was 17, saying I'd be doing them a favour. I now believe they are satanists, and that they have been trying to get me to either: a) Kill myself, b) Sell my soul for material gain, c) Enter into the direct & loyal service of Satan.

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So as you can see, this set of circumstances is quite unique. It has even led me to suspect that there is a very sinister, dark plan in operation - that perhaps they have been trying to groom me into readiness for the service of Satanic forces, even perhaps becoming the 'Antichrist'. I consider that the worm-like implant is a part of whatever plan is in place, aimed at wearing me down into thinking that there is no hope for me, that Satan controls my destiny, that there is no way that God can save me, etc, etc.

Wild, weird stuff, and it's a symptom of my daily life. The implanted worm is just another aspect of it - there's a lot that I've left unsaid, even with this post.

Best wishes,



FITO.


ETA - I should add, this thing is partially visible in some of the X-Rays & CT scans I have had over the years for various illnesses - I had heard the imaging specialists discussing the strange images they were getting when trying to image my chest/abdomen. I later sought copies of my records, in 2011, but several images were missing. This is despite my having access, by law, to any and all images that have been produced by our National Health Service, here in England. I was told that no other images exist, or that if they did, they have been lost. Because the images which are missing were of my abdomen & chest areas, it leads me to suspect that the government (or whoever) has redacted the records, for the purposes of secrecy.

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

Were you raised in a religious home?

Hopefully you have "taken the reigns" and have control over your life moreso today than you did at 17? A lot of what you wrote here is pretty concerning. I hope you're okay.

Have you been diagnosed with schizophrenia? You don't need to answer that if you don't want to, but talking about the voices and the worm implant etc. .. a lot of this leads me to believe you are hallucinating or that some of these events have manifested in your own mind, but not in the world outside

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

Post redacted. I see you describe the event.

That is the summary of the weirdest experience I have had, and as mentioned, I don't know of anyone who has experienced the same as I have.

You'd be surprised. Many people report spirits entering through orifces in the body and settling in to control and manipulate their minds.

I was experiencing psychotic symptoms

Paranoia.
Persecution complex.
Believing random strangers were put there just to attack you.
Hallucinations of demons and things inside you.

Don't you think that one sentence explains it all?

a reply to: FamCore

Thanks for you concern. I was diagnosed as having bipolar disorder, which does of course leave the possibility that some of my experiences were hallucinatory - but in all truth, aside from the hearing of voices, I have never been assessed as having visual or tactile hallucinations (the hearing of voices stopped after I became a Christian - sounds cliche, but true).


ETA - I should add that my natural family (parents) are anti-religious, against Christianity, and all other faiths.

a reply to: DAVID64

No, I don't think it does - not fully. There's a heap of stuff that has been related to me by 'family' over the years, regarding my origins, and regarding ongoing surveillance. For example, I was told by my father that I was genetically engineered by the military. I was told by my mother (seperated from my father) that I am an alien. I was told by my father that I was under constant surveillance by people working in DUMBs (underground bases, here in the UK, with access to all manner of surveillance tools). There's more, but I don't want to spend ages typing it out now, hope you can see that I'm trying to be honest, describing everything, not cutting out the psychotic part to avoid the sorts of queries you raise. I think a person can be mentally ill, and yet still be targeted for some reason. I believe the examples i just gave about what my parents have said to me over the years, sufficiently proves it wasn't all BS that I imagined. My parents were military, and I was raised on RAF bases to the age of 6.

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

the hearing of voices stopped after I became a Christian - sounds cliche, but true

It could have been, that after experiencing a spiritual awakening you found some sort of "resolve" and it settled some unaddressed psychological concerns which were previously causing the voices.

Or there could be more to it and the psychological/scientific explanation isn't giving enough credit to your situation. Either way, I'm glad the voices stopped. Hopefully you have some sort of treatment options for your bipolar?

a reply to: FamCore

Thank you, yes I see what you mean - it's a tricky one, to be sure. I can't totally attribute this to mental illness, and the scientific explanation only seems to go so far (thinking of the fact that the worm-like thing shows up on medical imagery, that I can feel & see it's movement in my abdomen, etc).

Yes, I do have a treatment plan in place for the bipolar, it's very well-managed presently, thank you for asking. I'm firmly of the opinion that nobody should be ashamed to say that they have experienced or experience mental illness. One in four will do so at some point in their lives. I think we all need to push for a society in which people are not categorised as 'crazy & completely unreliable' simply because they have had some problems which are medically defined & treatable.

I'm not being facetious, or dismissive or derisive when I say this.

Get you some horse-wormer and nuke that puppy!
Despite how it got there ( unusual paranormal experience) If it's real enough to be seen on x-ray films, if it's real enough to wander around and press on your nerves....

It's real enough to be de-wormed.
Plus a good cleaning wouldn't hurt you or anyone else as a matter of fact.

Back in the day....Grannies everywhere has kids and families drink a "spring tonic' made of wild herbs/weeds since after the long winter people were vitamin deficient. The tonic also had the side affect of worming the family. Not in all cases, but in enough that I mention it.

Those old Farm-Grannies knew their business and were tasked with keeping the family whole and healthy.

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

I completely agree - our society should become more aware of mental illnesses, it's severely stigmatized.

Good for you for having a well-managed treatment plan - keep up the hard work and best of luck on your journey for answers

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment
I've read to 6 and will continue, but this is familiar.
Look here on Youtube :
Sex with Entity

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

if you believe that the only way out is to kill yourself or serve the dark one then you are lost, their is always another way.

I'm just wondering, have you tried to get another X Ray or scan, since? I think I would, and see if it is there, even take a pic of the scan right after it is done. In case that comes up missing too.

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

(the hearing of voices stopped after I became a Christian - sounds cliche, but true).

I'm glad to hear this component of your story, as it allows me to respond.

I have no affiliation whatsoever with any religion, but what I do have is a connection with Jeshua (Jesus.) So do you.

If you would, please consider this suggestion: Surrender your life to Jesus. He resides within you but he will not act on your free will unless you allow him to do so. This is his Loving Mission and he will act to help guide you wherever you wish to go in the direction of Love.

My statement was to the effect that I said something like, "Jesus, please help me, I am effed up and my path has become cloudy. I surrender my life to you and your vision and I will completely and freely accept the path you put me on. Thank you dear Jesus, please hear my plea."

My life has NEVER been, as it is now. When you have the Love of Jeshua working for you, anything is possible, so please consider my words and act when your heart tells you to act.

My Love goes out to you Brother and I am telling Jeshua that I am very concerned about your situation. Help is but an action away. Good Luck.

Sorry to hear about your troubles. The worst part is being alone with it and having no one to take you seriously.

If you don't mind my asking, how old are you now and do you still live at home?

I'm curious about your relationship with your parents. It sounds like you are ambivalent towards them, and they towards you. Am I right? How do you know what to believe in what they are saying to you?

What would be their motive in saying that you are genetically engineered or an alien? Can you squint your eyes and discern the moment? Were they serious? Making fun of you? Messing with your feelings? Drunk?

When they said these things, did you get the impression that they were trying to help you or hurt you?

The fact that you got this far, and can talk about it the way you are, is a testament to your own strength. You have to believe that it will only get better from here.

a reply to: FlyInTheOintment

Sounds just about right to me.

Its interesting that some people, that just seem to be arrogant and close minded, are actually pretty good with all sorts of manipulation and or programming.. always amazes me..

Just keep swimming.. preferably far away from negative influences.

There's also the possibility of something you ate or drank could of been spiked with some substance.
I've noticed similar type of bbehavvior from a few people I seen take certain subbstancces

Does Be-e-jebub (Baalzebub) look like this ?

Confront him in dreams; then grab him by the throat and smash his head into the nearest brick wall behind him. It worked for me. Havn't witnessed him harassing me since early 2015.

Did he have relations that use aliases like 'Dancer' and 'Thumper' ?

Also the anti-christ has to speak Latin and have 666 alters (split personalities) relating to every letter of the Greek alphabet.
If you cannot speak Latin then you are not the AC. Latin is contained within Daemon Tongue. Without that, you cannot dish out orders to the Rephaim (giants).

a reply to: FamCore

And unfortunately young adults are the victims of that awful disease.
I think you have a very valid point.