Strange phenomenon last night in between sleep and awake. Twilight consciousness

a reply to: WhiteWingedMonolith

I dont think it is something to fear. Death is not to be feared if this was that. I did sense that at one point come to think of it.

Also, every human, married single or of what ever disposition should not fear anyone or anything.

In the end this is our path, I will die sure. I will not lament an inevitability.

The door is open, and that is good. I am meant to fit through it. It is my door.

I wont pass through it for power, for wisdom, or out of curiosity.

I will because I can. I am built for it. It is already meant to be. This is my natural state, I know it. It is the bark to my dog, the swim to my fish.

It is a step between death and life in my mind. I can live with that. I already do. This just makes sense, finally. I was born here in a way. It is my womb, my tomb. A new cycle. A seed that has grown and now is a sprout bursting through its shell.

In short, this is my nature.

HERE I am a mortal man. THERE I am something else entirely.

Maybe the two should meet, and join as one. Overcome the barrier. The seperation.

Thats what I feel anyways. I will not conquer death, but I wont need to. I am immortal elsewhere.

Right now beyond all this. My little life here is only a distinction I have made.

I seek balance and reunification. I WILL break the barrier. It is already happening and that is the most beautiful thing I can do. Perfect expression. Pure language. Pure thought. Pure unity of all form. Far and near made into a single point.

I hope that makes sense.

Thanks for the concern though.

Have a good one.
Hold it down.

a reply to: tadaman

Eddie thinks like you tadaman, your the best!
The selfish, they're all standing in line
Faithing and hoping to buy themselves time
Me, I figure as each breath goes by
I only own my mind

The North is to South what the clock is to time
There's east and there's west and there's everywhere life
I know I was born and I know that I'll die
The in between is mine
I am mine

And the feeling, it gets left behind
All the innocence lost at one time
Significant, behind the eyes
There's no need to hide
We're safe tonight

The ocean is full 'cause everyone's crying
The full moon is looking for friends at hightide
The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrow's denied
I only know my mind
I am mine

And the meaning, it gets left behind
All the innocents lost at one time
Significant, behind the eyes
There's no need to hide
We're safe tonight

And the feelings that get left behind
All the innocents broken with lies
Significance, between the lines
(We may need to hide)

And the meanings that get left behind
All the innocents lost at one time
We're all different behind the eyes
There's no need to hide
Song click here

a reply to: Quantum12

What a beautiful message. Thank you.

I love you.

a reply to: tadaman

There are not many people on this planet who can put thoughts on to paper the way you do! Your a rare person.

From the day we are born till the day we die, all we can do in life is leave a mark of what we did during our life.

I thank you for helping me see things clearer. A brilliant person like you is one who has a hard time sleeping.

I would buy your book of life and living. I lived in NY for a while and I know some one who would love you.

The way others do with your mind!

a reply to: tadaman
This is an AMAZING experience you've had! To me it sounded like you "leveled" up enough, passed a Test/Boss fight and have opened a door to New experiences/New information/Another dimension. Quite interesting, Please keep us up to date with what happens if/when you decide to go through The Door!

And deciding to become a Bodhisattva upon enlightenment! That is BEAUTIFUL and is a goal of mine as well.

Question: You said "Since the first time I have been preparing for this happening again. I wanted to see it through, so I have been mentally preparing since." What, may I ask, kind of mental preparing have you been practicing? Sounds super interesting.

Thank you SO much for sharing this with us! It was a pleasure to read your experience!

In Lak'ech

a reply to: MidNight sun

As far as preparing goes, just trying to find my peace with death. Knowing I could die, accepting that, and moving beyond the sadness of who I will miss, what I have left to do, all of it. Knowing I am done when I am done and there is nothing I can do to stop that,

Then trying to be as honest as possible with myself. Trying to be honest to others. Accepting my evil as well as my good. Seeing which is going to be stronger and having a say in that. Evil and good as far as MY CONSTRUCT. What I TRULY see as evil and good. What I decide those things are and empowering myself to be their master. BALANCE being supreme beyond any of these considerations. True balance of these forces.

Trying to see pain for what it is. Trying to listen to my inner self. Understanding what true communication is and trying to live within that communication.

Honesty basically. Trying to be honest and not shy away from pain and fear. Going forward into it with nothing reserved. Accepting it will overcome me, but will not destroy me. That once it passes only I will remain.

Things like that

In this moment your fear of death and pain is what makes you recoil when you are not ready. I wasnt and it left me all sorts of messed up. I learned that I wasnt meant to be ready. There is no set path beyond the one we make.

That all we need is already within us. In the words of the conquistadors, we lack nothing

Thanks for your time. I am happy it was useful.

Have a good one.
Hold it down.

EDIT TO ADD:
For those of us who are jedi´s or like the thought of a light and dark side of the "force"

I am Je daii, LOL

This is the Je-daii mantra:

"There is no ignorance; there is knowledge.
There is no fear; there is power.
I am the heart of the Force.
I am the revealing fire of light.
I am the mystery of darkness
In balance with chaos and harmony,
Immortal in the Force."



Light and dark /chaos and order.

Live within all things, and accept all things. When that is true all things are as you, and to will is as simple as to outstretch ones own hand, or take a breath into oneself.

All the universe within us. All that we are everywhere in the universe about us. Willing.....

You are all so beautiful...hidden gems, sparkling in the Darkness.

Thank you for giving me...for giving all...a glimpse of your Souls.