a reply to: Bluesma
I don't think I ever get close enough to those types to get involved personally.
Easy enough, unless you work with them, are family or ,in the case of my mother, caring for her in her last pages of life.
I found myself thinking- a person can also be TOO sensitive as well as not enough, you know?
What you might be calling too sensitive I call more awareness. I don't mean intolerance of conditions in the environment, I mean attuned to what
others are experiencing, without suffering their predicament internally yourself. More like reading their body english and understanding their mind
set through observation and a dash of ESP.
This comes from lots of experience from living on the bottom rung, seeing what others in the same condition go through. It also comes from the
experiences associated with spiritual contact and even a UFO experience.
See, once you witness theses things its not about belief anymore , you know . No one can take that from you, and even though it may seem arrogant to
assert things that others can't or won't understand because they haven't experienced it themselves, that isn''t grounds for remaining quiet about it
or suppressing it to spare their sensitivity, overreaction or outright denial. Theres a certain pressure to return to Plato's cave and try to free
others from their staunch beliefs or set behavior patterns.
Thats partly why I settled in this pond because at least here there are more that are open to "alternative" subjects that they don't get everyday in
the main stream and actually want to know more about it.
I'm sorry I'm off topic, so heres my conclusion about solipsism. I just get a big chuckle from people that think or insist that nothing can be known
outside their own awareness, because I am firmly grounded in the real world, even of the one that can't be known with our senses directly because it
has demonstrated itself to me on occasion and that kind of removes all doubt, despite my even wanting to remain in the dark or insensitive as some may
Real is real. delusion, fantasy and denial aren't.
So I don't go to church, disneyland or the zoo and circuses. I don't celebrate Christmas, Easter, or birthdays. I wasn't in the military, I don't have
a "higher education" I don't hold a worka day job, pay tax or vote. I don't follow sports, watch drama on TV or care about celebrity. I don't own a
car, a home, I don't have any money, insurance, or savings. None of these are "real", they are the fantasy constructed for everyones minds.
I have always been disillusioned with the worlds organized, industrial, civilized, construct. I don't fit in, I don't measure up and I don't appear to
be capable of anything. I especially don't care what people think of me, in fact I dress down some and appear disheveled on purpose. I want to know
who judges by appearance when I meet them, because I want to avoid that kind of person.
And yes, having been raised by narcissists blemishes my character, there are traits I would sooner be rid of and I try to keep from slipping into that
mode. But I know they aren't me, they are part of the dysfunction I received from my parents. I rebelled against that paradigm, whereas my brother
Finally, you have to live with people like this to really understand their lack of empathy for others and their firm ambition and drive to be
successful, well off, regardless of others and how they hurt or use them. Because they hide it so well, pretending to be nice and they are such good
romans. But inside they are dead. Whitewashed tombs.