My experience with.. something.

I'm lying in my bed, attempting to sleep.
I am restless, my room is dark, illuminated only by the inner working of my computer. I stare at the walls around me. Then I close my eyes, and I try to sleep. As I lay, I begin to feel like I'm being watched by something. I open my eyes but there is nothing there. I close my eyes and try to sleep, but the feeling of being watched does not dissipate. The feeling becomes more malicious. It hasn't looked away from me sense I first felt it's presence...

Out of fear my eyes remain shut, ignoring the sensation of being maliciously watched. I roll over on my side, facing the wall, hoping it will take my mind off of this presence I am detecting. I know it is still there.

I don't move a muscle, I'm too scared. As I continue to lay there ignoring, I feel it move closer. I feel my sheets decline, I hear my mattress squeak, the springs depress. I think to myself that it must be my cat, she can sense that I am scared and has come to comfort me.

But I know that it is not. My mind is racing, I am in a state of immense fear. I begin to hear a low ringing in my ear. I attribute this to some electronic in my room, as i've experienced this high pitch ring many time in my life dude to electronics.

I ignore it and continue trying to sleep. But as I ignore, the ring gets steadily louder and louder. I repeat to myself: "Just ignore it and it will leave." Everytime I complete this thought the pitch gets louder, rising along with it, my fear.

Before I know it the ringing has become a constant menacing screech. That I cannot get out of my head. I begin to try to yell for help from my parents in the next room. Dispite my best efforts nothing escapes my lungs. I am stuck, paralysed, being yelled at by this.. thing that I felt sit at the foot of my bed. I try to move and still cannot. With countless efforts to move, my fingers begin to twitch, I regain movement slowly.

The ringing eventually dissipates to nothing. I just lay there, knowing whatever I felt, was watching me still. I am stuck in a paralysed state of fear. I don't want to move, though i can, I am convinced that if I move, it will get me again, only this time tenfold.

I build up the courage to snatch my covers and pillow and swiftly relocated to the couch where I will sleep the next two or three days out of fear.

Several months later I will tell my mother that I felt I had seizure, but I tell her it was last night so she will not question why I neglected to tell her sooner.

She demands to know why I feel it was a seizure or heart attack, but as I explain it I break down crying. I let it known that I do not believe it was either of the two. That this happend months back, and am just now talking about it.

I am shaking, and crying uncontrollably as I recount the night of pure terror. I do not know what happend, but I vowed to look it straight in the eye next time I am visited. It made me question everything. Reality, religion, my sanity. Since that night I have not been the same person.

I've looked into it an mostly attribute it to sleep paralysis. But at the same time the experience was very traumatic, unlike my other sleep paralysis experiences.

A common theme in these types of experiences is that once the person no longer fears it, they stop happening. I find it to be an amazing hysterical phenomenon.

What do you think?

a reply to: DeadCat

No direct physical harm comes from these, right? Fear is powerful, nonetheless. Like you said, it only has the power you give it.

Net time tell the bully to get the hell out, and say a little prayer while you're at it.

a reply to: intrptr

It only happened to me once, which you read. Because I told myself to face it next time, I believe is why it no longer happens.

No physical harm, but the mental anguish I took from it was arguably worse.

I sometimes feel a presence, but am not paralyzed. When I feel my fear rising I leave for a minute, get some water, and come back to sleep in comfort.

It really sounds to me as if you had an attack of sleep paralysis. I used to get them all the time as a kid, teenager and less frequently now, as and adult. I've had similar experiences to what you described in your OP. But I can tell you that you are right in your belief to face whatever it is that your perceive is causing you this torment. Once you do that, the situation should go away mostly.

a reply to: DeadCat

You did say…

But at the same time the experience was very traumatic, unlike my other sleep paralysis experiences.

I didn't know what you meant by that. I had this one time experience, I was lying in bed asleep and dreaming someone came in the room and sat down on the bed. I felt it. This was so disconcerting I woke up and thats when a hand pressed on my back, holding me down.

I was fully awake at this point, lying on my belly looking to the side, feeling this hand on my back. Suddenly I hear this 'in my head' telepathic voice tell me to try and get up. I just lay there wondering, what the hell, is this a test?

I felt the bed move again, felt the pressure of the hand on my back and heard again a voice say, this time… look at me.

This really freaked me out because all I had to do was turn my head to the other side and look behind me and I would see (whomever, whatever) it was sitting on my bed, holding me down.

I'm like, No,no, ohno, I'm not looking and got scared enough to try and rise off the bed. After a lot of effort I succeeded in overcoming the pressure and began to raise up from my belly, whereupon I suddenly felt the hand leave my back and the bed rise from something getting up off it.

I still had my head to the wall, refusing to look, but get this, it walked out of the room, squeaking the floor, right where it squeaks when I walk on it.

I lay there a while (again, fully awake) thinking this over before I got the courage to turn and look… the room was empty.

It was freaky deeky, never had that happen before. People will say that was a sleep paralysis, as in this thing only happens in dreams. I would agree with them except I became fully awake during the event, I was not asleep anymore. One should know the difference, as I do.

Sorry to those poor souls that never experience these sorts of things, its their loss. Their world is purely visual, nothing spiritual at all…. tsk, tsk.

Begs the question, why do sleep paralysis events often associate with entities of some sort? Shouldn't we just dream we are frozen and unable to move? Why is there any other person or entity at all?

a reply to: intrptr

Your experience is very similar to mine. I was honestly convinced that if I looked, I would see something that would haunt me. I have woken up, unable to move, but only once did I feel like something was there causing it. People say it's a mass hysterical event caused by fear and others accounts of the experience. When I had this experience I had not heard of anything like it.

Some are convinced that these are dark spirits that come to feed off our fear. It would make sense that they would not bother haunting the mind of the curious, rather than the impressionable.

a reply to: DeadCat

I feel pretty confident this is sleep paralysis. It happens to people quite a bit that as they are in the process of waking up or going to sleep, they suddenly can't move. At that point, you are basically in a dream-like state where you are neither awake nor sleeping.

I would take this event as an opportunity to face your fear of the unknown. Having a small creature on your bed is really no big deal.

originally posted by: wayforward
a reply to: DeadCat

I feel pretty confident this is sleep paralysis. It happens to people quite a bit that as they are in the process of waking up or going to sleep, they suddenly can't move. At that point, you are basically in a dream-like state where you are neither awake nor sleeping.

I would take this event as an opportunity to face your fear of the unknown. Having a small creature on your bed is really no big deal.

It was definitely a preseption changing experience. It made me curious rather than afraid.

a reply to: intrptr

Jeepers, that sounds no bueno!

daw you shoulda looked! I wouldn't have been able to help myself xD

a reply to: DeadCat

I know the feeling, but be careful. Curiosity did indeed kill the cat

a reply to: DeadCat

Sweetie, I think you had an anxiety attack. That stuff will creep up on you, and often at bedtime.

Be well.

a reply to: DeadCat

It's called a panic attack. Seeing a psychologist may help if it continues.

a reply to: DeadCat

Your experience is very similar to mine. I was honestly convinced that if I looked, I would see something that would haunt me.

You didn't say that before. See, it is a common experience and more than just dreaming we are awake. And someone or something else is involved.

I had just moved into the place I was sleeping in, hadn't been there very long. Definitely a spirit of some kind. It was testing me, of that I'm sure.

Interesting to note over the years the handful of experiences I've had encountering spirits have always seemed like they come out to make themselves known to me, I don't know why. Others in the room were oblivious or didn't want to talk about it later if they did perceive something.

I always want to talk about that stuff.

Good thing theres an internet.

In the old days before internet you didn't talk about this without being labeled nuts. So now we compare notes and see ahhh, other complete strangers have the exact same experiences.

originally posted by: rukia
a reply to: intrptr

Jeepers, that sounds no bueno!

daw you shoulda looked! I wouldn't have been able to help myself xD

That "jeepers" reaction is more accurate. You wouldn't have looked either, imo.

I've seen ghosts before so it wasn't fear of seeing a dead person, (ghosts are just people without bodies), it was the way it unfolded, catching me off guard, holding me down, scaring the crap out of me first, then saying look at me.

If that happened to most people they'd freak…

a reply to: intrptr

Definitely, I was disappointed in myself for not looking to be honest. I told myself I would look next time out of curiosity. But they don't come agter that one incident.

a reply to: DeadCat

Besides the event is completely staged by them, all fear and of course… the unknown, the spirit realm we have no experience with.

They don't breeze in all warm and sunny, sit down say hi and make us all comfy.

We get chills and goose flesh, our stomachs go ice cold, we are frightened by their presence. I think part of that is so we remember it long afterwards. One of those "moments" in life we never forget.

Theres a message there for us, we will get it one day. First we have to turn it over and over in our mind, sometimes for many years.

a reply to: intrptr

It's so boggling, I myself am actually tempted to try and recreate it. Lower myself to a sense of insecurity and hopelessness when I feel that presence, then look it dead in the eye and demand it show its true form.

I have a sick sense of some type of empowerment, or feeling of elation when it comes to reality distortion. For me this would be the ultimate rush.. feeling its presence, then making contact, alluring to it, questioning its abilities so it will be forced to show me more...

a reply to: intrptr

have you read my threads? I always look. It's not that I want to look--I just can't help myself. I'm too inquisitive for my own good. I don't know if I'm brave or just a fool. I've seen a literal dead person--but everything scary I've seen has been demonic so a stupid ghost would probably make me laugh and I'd act like it was a normal person. Honestly, when people talk about ghosts, I often wonder why I've never seen one--I think it's because normal people can't see what they actually are. Demons are fond of parlor tricks.

I think that residual hauntings might be legit, but I'm of the mind that ghosts are basically all just demons in disguise. Because that's how evil works: it seeks to confuse, to terrify, and to threaten. I don't think you hang around when you die--regardless of the circumstances. Everything is energy--so why would something that has transcended the physical realm remain in the physical realm? Just doesn't make any sense.

I've never seen anything when I've had sleep paralysis--but I heard growling once. And that was pretty unnerving. It's the not seeing it that is scarier than seeing it, imo. Leaves more to the imagination. Once you see it, it's a relief, in a way (after you get over that initial moment of sheer terror). Because at least then you know what you're dealing with. Not that it's easy to come to terms with having seen something, of course, but I'd rather know than not know.

I dunno, I have seen four demons. The first one was when I was a toddler--and that's the only one I spoke to face-to-face (at great length, actually--and we didn't end up being friends). So, I guess that's probably why I can't not-look. It's such a novel experience, after all. Even though those experiences are scary and not something that I seek out, I figure that if it's happening I might as well experience it fully.

I probably sound pretty flippant about it all--but I guess that's just how I cope with it.

a reply to: DeadCat

I feel the same way. But I know it's wrong. Been there, done that--as a two-year-old. I don't think they'd parlay with an adult--you're not as easy to manipulate. But heck, they just might. Though I hope you don't really want to do that. It's up to you, though. But don't say I didn't warn you.

Let me just say that their abilities surpass your wildest imagination. That's why all of the great geniuses wrote about having contact with these things in their private journals. I recommend you research that aspect if you're interested.

a reply to: rukia

I'd be interested in reading some of your threads.

I assume you as with everyone else would not recommend that I try to provoke my experiences.

I find it facinating that dispite people not believing, they are unwilling, and also dont recommend, provoking.

a reply to: DeadCat

Cool! Yes, please do. I put them out there for this very reason. I haven't made a thread about that childhood experience--but I plan to. I do have threads on two other experiences though--both of which were experienced by others who were with me at the time as well.

And yes, I would recommend not playing with fire. But I do understand the desire to--and I have given in to that temptation. So, I guess I hope that you don't.

a reply to: rukia

If you fear to play with "fire" then you are not a skeptic. I would play with it, inorder to know that it exists. With this mindset I dont think anything will come of it. I will look into provocation and hopefully come out of it with a cool story ay?

There is a reason I named myself DeadCat after all.