Every addiction and addict is different so I don't know if this translates into smoking or not. But I'll share it in case it helps.
For me, with food, one of the things I always, always say is, "It doesn't ever really get easier." It "getting easier" is sort of a myth. Some days
it's easier. Some days it's not. It's been two years now since I've eaten purely to satiate cravings (because if I do, I know from experience I won't
be able to stop.) And while cravings do become more rare... overcoming them never gets any easier.
Other things people say that never prove true for me:
"You'll have more energy and feel great!" True to an extent. I'm better conditioned and can therefore do more. That COULD be called 'having more
energy.' And the endorphin high that comes from working out could be called 'feeling great.' But the problem is, the rest of the time I'm cold - no
one ever tells you if you drop over 100 lbs you'll be FREEZING to death in the sun btw - and I use up most of my 'energy' in my actual workouts. So I
never feel 'full of energy' and vital. Just healthier yet tired all the time lol.
"The first step is the hardest." Not really. When you're all motivated and committed and it's new and you're ready to go ("Let's do this!") that's
actually an easy
step imho. It's when you're depressed, stressed, without an outlet or another focus for your nervous energy, and alone that
the hardest steps come. Then if cravings hit too? Watch out. Those are the nearly impossible days. But I stick to my guns and don't cave. Even when it
makes my depression worse at times, as I know, I just know, the thing that kills me also makes me feel oh so good in the heat of the moment. But I
refuse to do it. That refusal? THAT'S the hardest step imho.
"Your body will thank you." Really? Because since eating right and losing weight, while it's fantastic I can do more and I'm thankful... the detoxing
sort of caused long dormant kidney stones to pass, which was the most excruciating experience of my life. The workouts, while I'm slowly becoming more
conditioned, are exhausting and arduous due to my asthma. I sleep way, way more due to the toll my other chronic health issues take on me in addition
to using my reserves to work out. Etc. Do I feel better? Yes and no. Is it still worth it? Yes. Does my body thank me? Not really. It's more of an,
"Siiiigh okay okay we'll do this... FINE! I guess we have to don't we? Sigh" than a, "Thanks! I feel so much better now!" lol.
Is it all worth it though? Absolutely. And I have to imagine the rewards of not smoking - living longer, saving money, higher lung capacity, better
conditioning so when you do get sick you can rebound quicker - are probably similar for you as well.
The key is not waiting for it to get easier. The key is being determined and saying, "Dammit... I WILL do this." Think of it as a game. The object of
your cravings is trying to defeat you. Get angry at it. Don't let it win. That's the only thing that works for me.
Your mileage may vary.
Hang in there. I believe in you.
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