I feel like I shouldn't even write this because it may just come out as baby babble or something that doesn't make sense, because if I read it long
ago, I may not understand it either...but here it is. My first post in a LONG LONG time.
I've been on a multi-year quest of change and the more I get rid of my own pride and self-consciousness, and 'negative' energy/feelings inside me --
the more I see how ridiculous humanity has become. We can be far more than just what we think we are, but most have chosen to remain ignorant of who
we are or at the very least, just be aware of our very potential (physically and mentally). Most don't care, just reveling in self-congratulatory
celebrations or the next big thrill, or making a big deal out of nothing. As in the triumph of some group of humans over another in military battle,
corporate warfare, religious warfare, ideological battles, etc... -- it's all the same thing, just in different clothing.
I have been purging out instinctual desires to pay attention to anything on the media / "NEWs" (actually OLDs) and much of what people around me say
- because it just isn't important to my soul, but some desire still remains - otherwise, I wouldn't be typing here. --- I almost never listen to
music, because every song is about the same thing pretty much. (LOVE / EVOL) I've healed myself of the reasons I enjoyed and listened to music before
(Bad frequencies/energy inside me) --
- I watched a few clips of baseball announcers on MLB.com (I used to play little league) and fans going crazy due to someone hitting a walk off home
run, as if it was the best thing EVER. Give me a freaking break. One game among 162 of people doing the same thing OVER AND OVER AGAIN. YEAR AFTER
YEAR. Does anyone ever get sick of this #? Humans = pavlov's dogs. I can't be too harsh, because I used to be like this, but I grew tired of it and
looked for something more fulfilling to my soul, not just temporary 'excitement.'
-- I briefly scanned a self-congratulatory news piece on a ticker tape parade for US Women's World Cup winners in NYC. Whatever. Men or women's, same
thing over and over again. SO you are better at kicking a black and white ball in a net. Whoopee - doo!
- I'll be glad when I never ever type in the words - Yahoo, Daily Mail, ABC News, CBS News, etc... I'm almost there. I seldom click on any stories
these day / clickbait. And that's without using self-control. I'll be glad when I don't even think of using the Internet any more. It's been useful
- learned a lot, but soon it will be no more. No, I don't care about Kim Kardashian, Taylor Swift, Caitlyn Jenner, the Duggars, Obama, Putin, ISIS,
the Boston bomber, the stock market, or anyone else in the media. It's been fun learning about QUANTUM ENTANGLEMENT and how it affects what we do,
but I'm ready to be completely disentangled from everyone I've ever met - cuz like I said, I'm sick of being huMAN.
- I haven't drank caffeine in any form since March 2014 (It's a pain reliever, emotional suppressant and toxin to our system). No ice tea, no tea, no
pop/soda, no coffee, no energy drinks. Look it up.
- As for eating caffeine - an occasional small piece of chocolate or chocolate chips, but that desire is almost gone. There is almost no more
physical or emotional pain to suppress.
- I don't carry / use a mobile phone. Too much bad EMF - is anyone even aware of this, no they are not, because they've been desensitized by caffeine
or nicotine (Also in nightshade vegetables).
- I have not drank alcohol since Feb 2014. ***SNIP***, I don't do any illegal or legal OTC drugs. No herbal supplements either.
- I'm sick of eating the crap that comes out from the man-made factories of humans - whether it be artificial foods or factory farming. Most of the
desire is still gone, but a tiny bit remains, maybe gone in a few months. I almost never eat out, just overloaded with salt (and fat). In fact, I'm
almost done with eating period. water and SUNlight, here I come (Eat the Sun, Discovery Channel Boy With Divine Powers, In the Beginning There Was
Light - Vimeo, Exploring the Spectrum) How's your DIE-t?
Ever seen Food, Inc, Forks Over Knives, Our Daily Bread?
I've traveled the world (Around 2x and then some) and seen that it is the same everywhere. 'Natural places of beauty' attract me more than man made
cities of skyscrapers / buildings. Human Jungles. Concrete Jungles. Steel Jungles. Soon, I will be ready to exist among it, free of my huMAN
Most all women I just don't find attractive any more, too much makeup, negative feelings Perfume - ick. But I think 2-3 have chosen to know that there
is something more, we will find each other when the time is right.
Well, I'm almost ready to 'close pandora's box, as I vomit out all the remnants of the 'apple' (Or fig, whatever) that adam and eve ate, etc...' and
really, just forget about all these myths.
If this makes no sense at all, I don't care. Because being free to me is being CARE-free. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words
(sounds/frequencies) will never hurt -- and this is almost true in my heart...
edit on 7/12/2015 by Blaine91555 because: Snipped mention of personal drug use in violation of the TAC.