Guilt Thrown Back...

Disclaimer: These are only feelings put to words. No action will be carried forth...


I sit here and have mistakes,
constantly thrown into my face.
Feels like it all needs to end,
I feel I need to leave this place.

This place meaning,
my spot on this earth.
Forever to roam no more,
no more to feel it's mirth.

One Who keeps hounding Me with,
all my wrongdoings from life past.
Wants to push me unto death,
so their reign here now will last...

That's the way it feels anyway,
for the onslaught never ends.
No matter how much I have tried,
to peacefully and truly make amends.

Perhaps it shall come to pass,
that they will realise how much,
I have done to try and make peace,
with heartfelt apologise,
and some gentle touch...

I know within that My name will carry on.
In those who's lives I've touched,
with Kind words and Heartfelt actions,
For All of Them, I've Loved so much...

Syx...

a reply to: SyxPak

Turn that frown upside down, man. I seriously hope no action will be taken. That sounded heavy.
Your writing style reminds me of stuff I've read from the 18th and 19th centuries. What reminds me of it is Your use of capital letters. Just like I did there. Your writing is much better spelled than back then though.

a reply to: Skid Mark

There. That's the best I can do man.

My caps use is odd I know. Sometimes I use them a lot more.!? I dunno Man. These were just some words to show how I was feelin a while ago.... Just caught in a Freakin Trap man... Frustrated, Pissed, all that...
Just hate being told I am walking my last miles I guess... Is what it feels like anyway...
Alas... Such is, That "It Is What It Is."... Syx...

Its better to get it all out on a piece of paper or a computer screen. Than to keep it inside.

a reply to: karmicecstasy

Thank You Karmic! My feeling exactly!!

originally posted by: SyxPak
a reply to: Skid Mark

There. That's the best I can do man.

My caps use is odd I know. Sometimes I use them a lot more.!? I dunno Man. These were just some words to show how I was feelin a while ago.... Just caught in a Freakin Trap man... Frustrated, Pissed, all that...
Just hate being told I am walking my last miles I guess... Is what it feels like anyway...
Alas... Such is, That "It Is What It Is."... Syx...

I wasn't picking at you about it or anything. I think it's neat. You don't see that much anymore.
Well, hang in there. Things are bound to get better.

a reply to: Skid Mark

lol! I knew your intention Bro! It's all good! And Yah, You are right. It will/Has to get better!

Remember you tried your best
you didn't settle for anything less

But to support all who felt the messages
which for some may open alternate Soul passages

For those who cannot seem to detach
from materialistic agenda and lies that are not facts

The soul integrity designed within 3d arena they build
will eventually help heal

As SELF HATRED is overcome
as they realize there is nowhere to run...

But within

As a tryer to assist the many seeking truth
united with many is also you

So don't forget or feel down for you at least put forth effort.

NAMASTE*******

a reply to: Ophiuchus 13

Thank You Ophiuchus for those deep and meaningful words.
Such a response from someone I have not before heard.

I take the meanings here deep into My Soul.
With them it does help Me to feel once again More Whole.

I appreciate Deeply the message You have given Me.
Appreciated Throughout My Being, and I give HeartFelt Thank's to Thee...

Ah, my brave dragon friend, our journeys are sometimes long and complicated, but we are warriors of light and always see our way through. Hugs

a reply to: SyxPak

You are welcome SyxPak Stay Strong friend

a reply to: Night Star

Thanks Night! I shall try to find the way!!

To My Friend Syx,

Just remember:

A stiff apology is a second insult.

The injured party does not want to be compensated because he has been wronged; he wants to be healed because he has been hurt. G K Chesterton

You have a big heart Syx. Be careful not to trip over your tail.

a reply to: SyxPak

Look for 'the happy' everyday, brother. Bad times are gonna fade ... but, you've gotta find 'the happy' intentionally.

You remember that old saying, "What doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger?" It's applicable when you let wounds heal. Pick at 'em and they'll end you.

You see that hand reaching down into the hole to pull you out? It's got a name.

-Cheers

a reply to: Snarl

I know the saying Snarl. Thanx Man.