posted on Feb, 20 2015 @ 09:56 AM
a reply to:
Bloodydagger
Moving right along..sorry for writing a whole novel here..by the age of 18 my life changed dramatically for the better. I'd lost weight, was looking
good and all of a sudden I was popular! (Because we all know being fat and ugly are not the way to become popular). For the first time in my life I
began to feel like I was actually human, that people cared about me and that I was part of something. These new found emotions of happiness did not
bode well with the already empowered being that needed the negativity as fuel to stay in this world.
Eventually things had to reach a breaking point, and they did just that. I'd decided enough is enough, I could no longer be what I had become and I
wanted to transcend that and be happy. So I put myself deep into meditation and began the process of attempting to seperate my self (ego) from the
being which was largely a part of my subconscious mind. This process took a long time, wearing down the strength of the other until eventually it
reached a point where if this thing was going to have to go, it would take me with it. Upon waking from my meditation, I had no control over my self,
I grabbed a knife and tried to kill myself..once the pain kicked in I "woke up" and threw the knife down realizing I was not done fighting this
thing yet. Eventually through a massive amount of will power I seperated myself from this being and it took a form outside of my body, essentially
looking like the shadow people you hear about.
From that point on, this thing still follows me around and will often bother those I care about, either entering their dreams or in one case taking
possession of them in their sleep and trying to kill me (an ex of mine woke up one night and tried strangling me in my sleep, her eyes were black and
she was under it's possession..she also has no memory of it happening). Also in one more recent incident..a friend and I were facing down two guys
with knives, intent on taking our lives. At that point I felt the beings presence and I allowed myself to be slightly influenced by it's energy to
the surprise and fear of everyone else. The two guys with the knives ran away, my friend was on his knees trembling from fear and what he said was
that my eyes went black, and a shadow figure was seen standing behind me creating sort of like black wings behind me..either ways it must have been
scary because he was actually genuinely scared.