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Madness drips red
along with other colors in my head
a summer seaside B&B for two
a subtle thrust of the knife and you’re left for dead
Madness drips white
not the vastness between, but the stars which shine bright
my head floats above the pillow
and the constellations just aren’t quite right
Madness drips blue
Flowing in rivulet along the broken shard of a memory or two
Will sets hand writing, this stylus against paper
blood and tears mingle, changing madness' hue
somewhere, a squid is shrivelling on the cracked desert floor
a tiny vole, traipsing along through the garden, a will to explore
the final electrical signal travels from brain to feather and back again
and the entire, stinking, twirling, sparkling world is a just a bit more noire
A dulce dipped wet dream
Of Sunday afternoon
Our lovers dalliance
On the far end of the pool
Toe gently nudges ship
Tiny rigging and sail
Mornings sermon forgotten
Lovers breath caught
Dreams outlined
in the halcyon laudanum glow
with sweaty fingers that dance along through fires
which were intentionally set for the show
the elements settled
whence the giants stirred
and began their walk
towards the glow
certainty tainted with saffron and alcohol
the diplomatic measure stains
as waters collide
and ideologues once again take over the show
the precipice attained with sins redress
the behemoths again begin to slow
as poppies shed tears into absinthe's abyss
upon the evening’s azure glow
...wear my love
...it is but a drop in time
...it's not the flesh that matters
...it's the spin of the dime
...for my eyes only level on yours
...and something inside me breaks
...anytime I walk near you
...my heart simply aches
...this is my love for you.
Holding onto you, the less I know
Looking into your eyes, the distance grows
a morsel of faith, and I let go…
only then, do I realize...what is there...and that it is real
it is the space between you and I , “us”
a taste of faith, and I know….
That’s quite the find you have there…
All shiny, and wet
I wonder where it came from
It’s bound to cause some tears, I’ll bet
If the blood is any indicator
It’s the cause of wars and sin
For the men will come dying
Just for a little piece within
If you can’t tell what it is I’m describing
You should look to your own self
Look to the gloaming for the dark things
And then place it on the shelf.
It is best left to forget.
carelessly she did pirouette across a soul
an insouciant smile towards warnings, boundaries
disregarding them with a oui
nonchalant with regards to the toll
fruit of her recital bittersweet
each measure fuzzy, yet concisely planned
would leave a heart dangling upon thin strand
yet she danced on to a steady beat
a serial performance to rave reviews
peers within her company once more applaud
in this late autumn, their compassion has not thawed
they turn a deaf ear to the mews
winners win and losers sulk that away
little thought given to the weak and wounded
blessed are the fools, gloriously undaunted
for it is beaujolais day
In my dream,
drilling into the marrow
of my entire bone,
my real dream,
I’m walking up and down Beacon Hill
searching for a street sign -
namely MERCY STREET.
Not there.
I try the Back Bay.
Not there.
Not there.
And yet I know the number.
45 Mercy Street.
I know the stained-glass window
of the foyer,
the three flights of the house
with its parquet floors.
I know the furniture and
mother, grandmother, great-grandmother,
the servants.
I know the cupboard of Spode
the boat of ice, solid silver,
where the butter sits in neat squares
like strange giant’s teeth
on the big mahogany table.
I know it well.
Not there.
Where did you go?
45 Mercy Street,
with great-grandmother
kneeling in her whale-bone corset
and praying gently but fiercely
to the wash basin,
at five A.M.
at noon
dozing in her wiggy rocker,
grandfather taking a nap in the pantry,
grandmother pushing the bell for the downstairs maid,
and Nana rocking Mother with an oversized flower
on her forehead to cover the curl
of when she was good and when she was…
And where she was begat
and in a generation
the third she will beget,
me,
with the stranger’s seed blooming
into the flower called Horrid.
I walk in a yellow dress
and a white pocketbook stuffed with cigarettes,
enough pills, my wallet, my keys,
and being twenty-eight, or is it forty-five?
I walk. I walk.
I hold matches at street signs
for it is dark,
as dark as the leathery dead
and I have lost my green Ford,
my house in the suburbs,
two little kids
sucked up like pollen by the bee in me
and a husband
who has wiped off his eyes
in order not to see my inside out
and I am walking and looking
and this is no dream
just my oily life
where the people are alibis
and the street is unfindable for an
entire lifetime.
Pull the shades down -
I don’t care!
Bolt the door, mercy,
erase the number,
rip down the street sign,
what can it matter,
what can it matter to this cheapskate
who wants to own the past
that went out on a dead ship
and left me only with paper?
Not there.
I open my pocketbook,
as women do,
and fish swim back and forth
between the dollars and the lipstick.
I pick them out,
one by one
and throw them at the street signs,
and shoot my pocketbook
into the Charles River.
Next I pull the dream off
and slam into the cement wall
of the clumsy calendar
I live in,
my life,
and its hauled up
notebooks.
Looking down on empty streets, all she can see
Are the dreams all made solid
Are the dreams all made realAll of the buildings, all of those cars
Were once just a dream
In somebody’s head
She pictures the broken glass, she pictures the steam
She pictures a soul
With no leak at the seam
Lets take the boat out
Wait until darkness
Let’s take the boat out
Wait until darkness comesNowhere in the corridors of pale green and grey
Nowhere in the suburbs
In the cold light of day
There in the midst of it so alive and alone
Words support like bone
Dreaming of mercy st.
Wear your inside out
Dreaming of mercy
In your daddy‘s arms again
Dreaming of mercy st.
‘swear they moved that sign
Dreaming of mercy
In your daddy’s arms
Pulling out the papers from the drawers that slide smooth
Tugging at the darkness, word upon word
Confessing all the secret things in the warm velvet box
To the priest-he’s the doctor
He can handle the shocks Dreaming of the tenderness-the tremble in the hips
Of kissing Mary’s lips
Dreaming of mercy st.
Wear your insides out
Dreaming of mercy
In your daddy’s arms again
Dreaming of mercy st.
‘swear they moved that sign
Looking for mercy
In your daddy’s armsMercy, mercy, looking for mercy
Mercy, mercy, looking for mercyAnne, with her father is out in the boat
Riding the water
Riding the waves on the sea
Woke up reeling
it’s just past four
One xanax happy, Two xanax happy, three xanax, Four
Looking for some comfort
Find that pillow on the floor
One xanax happy, Two xanax happy, three xanax, Four
arrived at the mines
a huge sign on the door
One xanax happy, Two xanax happy, three xanax, Four
day proceeds
why is the boss so sore
One xanax happy, Two xanax happy, three xanax, Four
the day is over
heading home is a chore
One xanax happy, Two xanax happy, three xanax, Four
What could it hurt,
Just one more?