I don't have many of those problems, mine are more like me myself and I.
I obtained some 'stealth upgrades' awhile back to keep an edge in this new battlefield.
I'm off your radars unless you are looking for
swans or flamingos.
There are 2 or 3 nice people I do u2u now and then that are friendly,
(you would be amazed how empty my u2u box has been over 10yrs until last week).
My new friend is really nice. I appreciate that person very much.
I make mistakes everyday like everyone else, can't spell very well etc, etc.
I haven't got an applause for any threads I wrote in almost a year (don't care really but noticed), I did get one for a one liner I wrote in another
thread a few months back, and for a 3yr old thread recently (?). I don't have any 'butt kissers' that I am aware of to prop my ego exactly. I actually
have to pick myself up off the floor everyday although recently I have gotten a few hands of true daring and grace at important moments which I am
very thankful for. They know who they are and know I'm forever grateful.
Beside the point though...
In a way the struggle itself, although painful, has rebuilt my ego into something much more reasonable. So I am kinda glad I'm "standing on my own
here", fake praise misleads.
I realize none of you really like me that much hahah.
I challenge everything we believe for sport. Why?
Because I can and will.
Because it's
easy and
needs to be done by someone.
Because I can't stand anyone of us anymore and want to rip us all apart down to the heart of what matters.
I know something so MUCH BETTER can be built in place of this mess!
It's not up to me what anyone else does. I accept that now.
It's up to everyone themselves on their own to choose their specific solutions.
Of course I don't have many serious investigators of what I write (maybe 1 or 2 at best? lol). I lay landmines everywhere I go, and yell don't follow
as I jump in the snake pit like a maniac.
I typically shoot into the dark blindly,
expecting to come out like a Jedi or something.
And it somehow worked and still works.
So I should probably keep blowing on the dice till I lose.
Life is roulette anyway, for us all...
I should try to clean house if possible!
I didn't lose anyone here, I never had anyone.
I'm gaining myself finally so at least I might achieve that.
Can't compliment me much when you're sliced to bits anyhow right?
But hey I'm a 'Medic' too so I'll patch up anyone I slash if they let me...
I admit I am deafened by the silence of the aftermath...
Can't you all see our
hands are empty???
The sands slip through in time!
I'm lookin for something I can take with me to the '
other side'.
And it ain't something you can see or touch but you will feel it deep
within.
That's where "It" hides you know? "
You"!
It's free, it's everywhere, it's everything.
And it's impossibly expensive, it's no where, and it's nothing.
I will continue exercising mercy but it isn't easy to maintain balance in the Cesspool of Life. And I don't want anyone else's stars anymore, I'm
starring myself for once. (Figuratively)
Not gonna wait a million years for someone else to do it when all I need is
my own approval for sharing what I know is important to everyone
everywhere on Earth no matter if any of you "get it" yet. One day you will all break through to yourselves too I know it, most of you haven't yet, but
I'll never give up on any of you, we're almost there.
A Snail at 33 knots but pulling in the lead??
The last will be first, it's all about thirst! And I'm parched!
I'm not "on a roll" per se, I'm "The Extremist" so I must be "Surfin with the Alien"...
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