How does One lose their Drive in Life? OPP'S!

reply to post by Mister_Bit


Try not to see it that way, being crushed anyways. Even now as I type, other half is having the words at me. Though I would be nice and quite, house clean; except in her stardards it has to be at 250% over 100%.

Working on a bathtub install, new idea and watching YT videos you can do anything. Or so I thought, almost dome though. Walls are in place, drop the ceiling and add tub and drywall! Would have had most of it done exce[t most of my tools have legs attached! She started another project, has lists for 1,000's more yet will not do anything herself. Pain goes a long way, work 6 days a week. Whats one day of rest?

It's never that bad though. Even in the boat I'm in, never consider if it could be better. Sure someday it will happen, just not time yet. Maybe its the end of one path and on to another so dealing with the lag issues could be it. Or my plain old idea of Happyness needs to be rewritten.

Sometimes dealing with a lack of something creates something later on. Life can change in a day, so fast you wonder how and try to keep up. And sometimes it slows down to a crawl you wonder why.

Or after the drive you find out it was not what you expected anyways. Best to inploded then explode I think. I stay away from them pills since everyone I know who uses them is far much worst.

If I can hang on, then you can too!

Peace

reply to post by Mister_Bit


You know. Spiritually thinking about it. One has to wonder if our Spirit has been lost due to how the world is. People are just not happy anymore with life and drain the rest of life out of us.

No matter how kind you are, respect has gone out the window followed by following the masses. I wonder if Spiritually is all its cracked up to be. Even just allowing things as they are seems to wonder off the path somehow. Looking at myself, having gone through actually nothing lol Everything a Touch of Something is missing.

Like a wall that somehow dissapeard for some of us and now have to relearn understanding of what we call values/ideas in our heads. Yet I have Energy, somehow the quest has not even started yet.

It all started one day questioning me, myself and I. Left with what to do now, many ways yet no true path to take. As of late anyways.

Peace

I work for a municipality, a smalish town, i got lucky to get my job, its mainly friends and family members that get hired, i got passed for promotion so many times cause i dont play golf or suck up to my bosses.

I can do the work of 3 men, not cause im awsome, cause its so easy, finnaly got fed up and stoped caring, last january i told my bosses i was looking for a new job, my reasons wheres non qualified people where behing promoted while basicly doing nothing. I stoped working, did the minimum, and guess what i got a raise lol.

Im ashamed to say but not caring anymore got me what 20 years of hard work didint.

Thats why i lost my drive

Oh and a bad divorce does that to you

reply to post by dukeofjive696969


I know how you feel. I work with zombies myself and wonder why sometimes. It would seem in todays world most do as their told while I find things to do without being told. For the Love of God still can not fathom how some keep their jobs thesedays!

Most want to talk about doom, gov and all the dirty crap floating out there yet never really taking the time seeking completeness or something spiritual these days. And even that drives a person crazy! Since somehow it ends up in seeking something outside then within your own world itself.

I think I lost my Drive somehow because it really did not matter to anyone. Even checked for energy suckers in my life lol trying to explain the lost of it all. Then came Doom Porn, Oh for the Love of God! Fit right in, wanting something to actually happen so people would wake up.

Thought somehow I was the only one left in the world using my brain or over using anyways. Here I can look up almost anything on the computer and find nothing I can use but some words from some that have gone through what I am going through. Could one go as far as disconnecting oneself from the world?

One things for sure, I do not fit in nor even if I wanted too could really since something deeper is happening. Find it odd that people creap me out! Not saying I'm better nor judging just the No, not me thing.

Could just be resolving host issues within lol. Or the old is dying and I haven't caught up with the new. Limbo? Puratory perhaps? Yet been there before and nothing like this! Surely I haven't been brainwashed could I?

Or am I just waking up to what is real and seeing what I created out of nothing. Work, play, living. I find something is missing these days!

Peace