Hate it when I told myself not to hit the return button!
Here I can have pretty much anything I could want, yet I find I want nothing. Do find this strange since I lost any interest doing whatever. Now do
not take this wrong, I'm not rich, nor live is some larger house that rooms are not needed. Do work, everyday except on Sundays since for one things
for sure; Rest!
Other then living in the middle of no where land, things are okay. Sure something could come my way indeed, yet might just make Life more interesting.
Very small town, people would rather make stories then actually talk to you and when they do, add to the Story!
So, having said that lets begin. When you look at your Life, I mean Really! What do you see? Happyness is only a state of mind and not something to
seek, yet I wonder why finding Happyness leaves you in a blank state of mind.
I could try to change this, mess with that some. Hell we all Play don't we? Next is the God issue, good luck! Found more issues in that then in my
whole life so have to leave Him out yet there. Could get out more offten, everyday I meet new people at work anyways and half to hold my lips from
moving! Nothing like hearing others people problems, yet do nothing to solve them themselves.
Yet here I have one. Everything seems to be in No Drive mode, so how did I get to this point? Checked everything so it has to be within myself. Worlds
gone mad so maybe I'm slow in catching up lol.
So what is Drive? I can get into any project and do it, Love something New; like the bathroom. Killing me yet I shall complete my new task. How to
explain the lack of drive is somewhat odd. Their is nothing I actually want except Peace on Earth, roam the Stars!
Strange to be actually saying I want nothing! Here I have everything around yet I am neither Happy nor Sad. I can Choose and find I have both at the
same time! For once in my Life, I could say I am Stuck!
Make new plans, done that. Seek God, okay there. Try breathing under water, sit up right for days, eat nothing......... and do the rest of the things
most claim it will work. Does on various levels though, yet I'm still Stuck.
Voices are in check, everything is okay and Life will toss out the odd parts for me to deal with for sure. I'm still not bothered. What comes my way
it's okay that bothers me! Fear is knowing this really.
Could just drop everything, does not work! Looked into fixing everything, tryed that one and sometimes things do not Need to be Fixed unless you would
like them to get worst.
Any one Feel this way? Maybe its just a phase in one's life to be learned, accepted and go from there. Could be I need to hit the Mad Button, lol its
already mad out there so i'll skip that. So if you have any idea's on this so-called problem let me know!
Funny how Life keeps me from deleting this OP so it must have its point in all this too! Why did I Hit the Return Button?
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