I've experienced some deep sadness and sorrow in my life. The one you can feel through all of your bones right to the soul. Even though I had
everything a normal person would aspire to, I had to endure situations that subjectively was the most painful experience of the universe. For someone
else it could have been a grain of salt in the ocean, but for me it was just like the end of the world.
. The kind of pain that makes you wonder if it's ever gonna stop.
Without going too much into details, let's just say most of the suffering was caused by two hardful long-term relationship breakups that forced me to
face the person I truly was in my heart. Being the kind of person I am, I isolated myself and went one vs. one against my own suffering. No rebound
relationship just like we see so often nowadays, only me myself and I.
I must say that even if at first I'd hardly recognize and admit it, true suffering might be one of the greatest gift of all. I did everything to try
and get out of this misery without having to really acknowledge its presence. Drugs, entertainment, consumption, etc, but in the end they would only
darken what was hidden deep within. One way or another, the whale has to come back to the surface.
One day you just have to face the obvious. I am suffering.
The ego has to take a nap at this precise moment.
Then questions arise. Why? Why me? What did I do to life to deserve this? Am I not a good person?
You look around yourself seeing happy couples everywhere. Why them? Even malovent people are being happy in life and in relationship, why's that?
Then you start to slowly accept it and works towards self-improvement. You try to truly understand what went wrong. You don't want to do the same
mistakes anymore. You start to question everything. You look at reality with different eyes. Eyes of acceptation. You learn to cherish what you have
while you have it. You realize just how stupid you were in the past for not having x or y when in fact you had everything. Life, love, health, wealth,
Then one day it hits and you understand. That's the reason why it happened to me. So I could appreciate life for what it is and realize just how
magnificent it is. A simple truth becomes obvious: When you lose everything you get to cherish everyhing.
You learn to filter what's important
and what's not. Even though most people know how important family is, how many will really take the time to put down their cellphones, or close their
TVs, and say 'I love you'? We all know the answers to that, right? They will wait until their loved person pass away and say 'Oh my, I should
That's where one of my most important realization in life comes from. When an individual has everything he aspires for, when he has everything he
thinks makes him happy, there is a strong possibility he just stop cherishing it. He might fail to realize anymore just how lucky he is and how
grateful he should be. Instead, he will always want more. What's the point of having more if you can't even take the proper time to appreciate what
you already have? Furthermore, working on self-improvement might easily become meaningless. I've observed this a lot around myself. People will become
(or has always been) simple minded because they didn't have the chance to actively work on themselves. And that's the secret. Suffering forces people
to look in the mirror. It drives one towards a profound and powerful change. If they are willing to face it, that is.
In this instance, should I conclude many ATSers suffered in their lifetime since so many people here are open-minded and life-driven?
And please remember, when you suffer in life, this might be one of the greatest opportunity of all.
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