posted on Feb, 4 2014 @ 03:01 PM
Well, I've ranted here before on certain subjects, but hey, life still sucks so what the heck. The end of my positive outlook on thing started at the
end of 2012 when I was supposedly temporarily laid off from my well paying job that I had for almost 8 yrs. It wasn't a high paying job, but my bills
were always paid and I was able to ride my dirt bike almost every weekend with my brother in law. Let me tell you, there is nothing else in the world
like blasting through the woods without a care in the world. Just you and the woods breezing by and the sweet sound of my dirt bike. i have only rode
twice since those good old days. that's twice in about a year. So, back to my rant. My so called temporary lay off turned into a permanent one and
besides working about 2 months since then at a job I was too inexperienced at and eventually got fired from, unemployment has become like a bad
infection that nobody has a cure for. I have now applied for food stamps, (Aren't you proud of me Mr President?) and after more than a week, I still
don't know if we qualify!!! My rent is due soon among other bills coming up and the stress and depression at times have led me to the edge of
thinking about this rather large bridge that is at least 300 ft high. Now I know I seem to be crying a river, but all I want is to be able to get
back on my feet and have somewhat of a life again and not worry about being homeless and destitute. Somehow though, you would think that i am asking
for just way too much!!! Maybe it is. I really don't know what keeps me going, hoping and praying for that one call back and somebody on the other
line to say, hey, I read your application and would really like you to come in for an interview. Some will say it's GOD just testing me. Well, hey!
I'm tired of these stupid tests!! Just let me have a life again,ok? My heart goes to all those suffering likewise and more for some good fortune to
come their way during these trying times in our lives.