posted on Feb, 3 2014 @ 09:43 PM
If you must know. I'll tell you the bare bones and nothing else.
For as long as I can remember I've been taken advantage of, lied to, stabbed in the back and left for dead everyone I trusted my friends once and
that trust too was broken. The people I lost and the ones I loved that went missing, lingering in my mind all day and night.
That's not even the worst part of what made me question reality... Those that pretended to love and care for me abandoned me a long time ago for
their own selfish desire's.
These things were what had shattered my mind and personality eventually the betrayal, the death's, the people I cared about that went missing (I
still have no idea what happened to them) all these problems just made me snap and break on the inside. Lost all sense of direction, avoided liquor as
much as I could if that's the one thing I took away from observation of other people.
I got over the hate and betrayal eventually. I just moved on time after time just rebuilding myself keeping my promises to the departed and deceased
to never let go of everything I'd tried to achieve and work for.
For a while I just thought it couldn't be real all of this is here to do nothing but torture and harm me, but you know how reality breaks everything
I figured out it never could be a dream eventually.
Why? all dreams end eventually, and I lived a nightmare at one point of my life. I guess throughout it all the pain gave me something to set my sights
Not long after just decided to let the past be what it should be the past. A bunch of memories that I learned from eventually.