posted on Jan, 26 2014 @ 09:19 AM
When I was a child I started a phase of my life where I had severe continual anxiety. It was a long never ending panic attack. I vividly remember
watching the movie Shrek because it started short before that. Every moment was a tormenting reality. I never went to see a doctor or psychologist, I
just kept it to myself, I was severely anxious and had an irrational fear of death every waking moment of every day.
Then one night I decided I had had enough, so I told myself I was going to relax. I didn't dream that night, but when I woke up I no longer had the
anxiety, it was gone. Not only the irrational fears, but rational fears, they all ceased to exist. It came with a price though, when I went to sleep
that night, my dreams were filled with horrific nightmarish scenes. My dreams had become dark, dingy, post apocalyptic looking. There is always
someone after me, trying to kill me. A dangerous situation, or a nightmarish creature trying to eat me. It was a good trade off in my opinion. I would
rather be terrified in every sleeping moment rather than every waking moment.
I am currently attempting to learn how to have controlled lucid dreams, through techniques such as reality checks, dream journal, and MILD (Mnemonic
Induced Lucid Dream). Basically you think about the last dream you had right before you go to sleep, and try to continue it, and control it. The
purpose of the reality checks is so that when your dreaming, you eventually do a reality check, and realize your dreaming. I have not yet had any
success, but I will keep trying. Perhaps you should look into it, I don't know if it is legitimate because I have no personal experience, but I
figure it is worth a try.