You may not perceive it to come from your own mind, but its very likely it came from a part that you just werent aware of. When you say
"channeling," I tend to think of something vastly different than this. I dont think there is any need to worry over things like this, but more on
sorry if that sounds confusing, I'm a little scattered today. I think I'm going under the weather! coming under the weather,
It sounds like you are a very creative person. Have you tried any other mediums of art other than poetry?
Yea, trance channeling, or the idea of "stepping aside" and allowing another entity to take over and use my voice and body without my knowing
what's happening... that's a wee bit too close to possession to me! The older things I've written that make me think they may have been channeled
were things that I could barely keep up with it was coming so fast, like somebody was telling me the story and I was trying to type it as quickly as
possible. I had to read it back over to see what in the world had just happened. Or things that woke me up and nagged at me until I wrote them
Actually I have dabbled in all kinds of creative things... painting, music, singing, sketching with pencils, creating short films and documentaries...
love them all, but writing, to me, is like breathing. Also, writing is one of very few things you can still do pretty much for free! As long as I can
afford spiral bound notebooks and a pack of pens, I'm happy!
I use the computer to write too, but more of the fiction type of writing. The real stuff, the stuff that comes from the heart, that feels better
"physically" writing with pen and paper. There's a flow to that, like the smooth flow of words, and it isn't as choppy as typing, at least to
The last day or so has had me soul searching, trying to figure out once and for all just what I'm going to do with all these experiences. The
decision to focus mainly on the higher levels (meditation, prayer, reiki) over the lower levels (ghost hunting, etc.) has brought me a great deal of
peace. It's still fascinating to have an experience with a lower level entity, and mind-blowing to think I may actually have helped a couple of
spirits cross, but I also know the dangers, hence the questions about all this to begin with. I wanted to hear from people who have had a lot more
experience than I have; I was never making excuses to justify anything.
THANK YOU for understanding that, and for your replies. I know a lot of things about the spiritual/ghostly realm now that I can't "un"know, but
that doesn't mean I have to focus on that. I do feel that I've been very lucky in the experiences I've had, and I've not been hurt or anything. I
just have this feeling of dread that if I open myself up to that again, it might not be so pretty. Kind of like waiting for the other boot to fall!
With all that said, however, I'm not denying that certain things don't exist. I may be faced with something in the future where I'll have to deal
with it, but that's the future, not right now.
Right now I've gone back to listening to my peaceful, gentle "mind journey" music, and feeling better. I was stressing about something last night,
and a beautiful native american flute song came on the station I was listening to. I recognized it as an opportunity to drop my thoughts, close my
eyes and let the music just flow over me like water in a creek. It worked, I stopped stressing and even slept better that night, having several
peaceful, light-hearted dreams. All from one tiny song!!!
That used to be an every day thing for me, and I really miss it. I'm going to let all the other stuff go and get back to making my life peaceful
again. Four years ago I wrote down all my experiences and organized them, and that was the most wonderful, magical four months of my life. I had total
bliss many days in a row. It was right around Christmas that I did this, and I didn't have much money at all. I remembered my mother talking about
when she was a girl growing up in West Virginia, that for Christmas they were lucky to get an orange OR an apple (couldn't afford both), a few pieces
of hard candy and some nuts in the shell.
I thought, oh man, that would be a neat Christmas... I wish I could get that for myself this year! The morning of Christmas Eve, a local church group
knocked on my door and presented me with a "come to our church" goody bag... containing apples, an orange, a couple tangerines, a handful of nuts in
the shell, some hard candy, and two full sized candy bars. Merry Christmas to me! Some say coincidence, I say synchronicity. I never did go to that
church though... I lost my house after that and had to move... oh well!
I'm doing much better than a few years back, stress wise and everything. Money is still very tight, but who ISN'T having problems right now? This
too shall pass, and I feel like I'm finally beginning to "get it." When I was embracing my spiritual experiences fully and writing about them, I
was on track with my purpose. SOME part of that was my purpose... either the writing itself or being in that frame of mind about everything I've been
And most recently I've realized that maybe all my bad luck and stuff happening to knock me down came for a reason I neglected to even consider. Maybe
all the bad stuff wasn't to knock me down, and my attitude toward it was all wrong. Maybe all those bad things were meant to give me opportunities to
transmute the negative into the positive. Like the old adage, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade? I forgot to make the lemonade, all I was
doing was sucking on the lemons and it was literally leaving a sour taste in my mouth!