Hello! I am relatively new to both meditation and channeling. When I channeled something spontaneously December 5, 2008, it blew me away. I never
really believed in it previously and was highly suspicious of it in general. When it happened to me, it kicked my questioning up to a totally
Let me say that I am a writer, focusing mainly on short story type essay material or poetry. I have written several screenplays in the last few years,
and I am very familiar with the use of dialogue. At some point the characters seem to take over and tell you what to write, instead of you grasping at
straws to fashion their sentences on your own. What I experienced back in 2008 was nothing like this.
To make a long story short, I was writing down my thoughts on a certain topic, nothing spiritual or paranormal in nature, and as I progressed I
realized that the words coming were not my own any longer. I kept writing, although haltingly, as I tried to wrap my mind around this new process. I
was aware enough to keep writing the words coming through to me, but at the same time I was thinking, "What in the world is happening here? That's
not my words... I'm thinking this
but I'm still writing that
. How can I have two entirely different trains of thought going on
Nothing seemed to crazy or mean, so I kept writing it down until there was not more words coming into my mind. I read everything back and it sounded
very new agey and had a generally positive message to it. Basically it said when we have ruined our land, our lakes and our skies, that 'I and the
sky people will return to teach you to live in harmony.' I'm paraphrasing here, I don't have my notebook in front of me at the moment!
It was sort of a warning, but at the same time it was encouraging because it said some of us would be leading by example and, through our actions and
reactions to the events to come, showing the general public that all is not lost. The exact message doesn't concern me as much as where it is coming
This is the question that has bothered me ever since that day. While I do trust my own feelings, and I feel that this is a positive, encouraging
message meant to help people cope with something coming down the pike, how do I know this source can be trusted? I have received a few more messages
from this same source, or what feels like the same one, and I feel incredibly loved and protected when they come through.
BUT - I keep hearing all the warnings of a BIG LIE that will deceive millions of people. At this point let me say I never was into religion until I
was saved at 19, and then I read the Bible voraciously. In those pages I found some comfort, then found places that told me I was destined to burn in
hell no matter what I did, then found more pages that said I was saved from that. The more I read, the more I was confused. None of this has wavered
my faith in God, but it has made me question my faith in my fellow man. I realized men chose what books we all would be able to read, back in the
Council of Nicea, and I wondered what was removed. What beliefs and miracles were hidden from us during that Council?
I have meditated, and I have channeled information. Both cases I always feel an immense outpouring of love and protection, making me feel that this is
indeed connecting with a positive, or divine, energy. I'd like to say that I also have felt very negative energies, what i refer to as ghosts or
angry spirits, all the way up to what I would call a demonic energy. I'd like to believe that I can tell the difference.
Problem is, the very nature of evil would have it masquerading as something "warm and fuzzy' in order to disarm us and pull us into its influence.
When we meditate and feel that loving, healing energy, how do we know it's not really something negative masquerading as a benevolent presence? Those
encouraging messages I've channeled... could be someone or something wants to gain my trust, then start leading me astray.
I understand that not ALL meditation is necessarily threatening, and not ALL channeling is being taken over by evil energies. For the record, I know a
lot of people say there really is no evil, that it's all a creation of man... but I have FELT evil come into a room and send fear and chills to my
very core, making me fear for my life in one case. I have heard it whisper in my ear at least on one occasion, and it is those memories that fuel my
confusion now as I question everything that has come through to me in the last several years.
So it is my belief that evil is real, and it can be highly deceptive if it wants to fool us. That said, I also believe I have felt the loving presence
of angels who helped me through an extremely rough time in my life. Then again, was it something else trying to gain control of my trusting nature?
You see, the more I think I have something figured out, the more I question the validity of my own experiences.
My intention of posting this thread is to throw all these thoughts out there and see what the ATS readers think. I will take this a step further and
say that at the moment I am considering whether to continue with my channeling and occasional spirit communication or walk away entirely. I have an
incredibly strong passion for helping trapped spirits cross over to the Other Side (I've done this twice, or I THINK I have anyway!), and also have a
passion for helping those remaining on this side to deal with their own experiences that have frightened them. I was previously involved in a ghost
hunting group, but now I feel sheepish when I think about doing that again. I just feel like I'm exploiting those I may be able to help.
But then again, what if all these "trapped spirits" are just demons waiting to lure us into a false sense of "doing the right thing?"
HELP, anybody! I'm open to your thoughts
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