reply to post by gwynnhwyfar
When you have a connection with another lifeform, whether human, or feline, or canine, or anything else that you feel deeply toward, and that lifeform
dies, it is always horrible. My buddy had a cat who adored me, and I was equally taken with her. She was a character. Totally barmy, but soppy as
anything toward me. I would walk into my pals front room, sit down, and within seconds would have a lap full of cat. If I slept at my pals place
overnight, I would sleep on the floor, and wake up with the cat asleep on my chest, or to her licking my nose. I looked after her when my pal was on
holiday, and I used to spend nearly as much time at my buddies place as at home, so the cat and I bonded very deeply over the years.
Toward the end, she was having pills crushed up in her dinner, to treat a heart condition. I was looking after her during my buddies holiday at the
time, and one day I walked into the property, sat in my usual spot, and waited. And waited. Finally, I decided to sweep the flat, concerned with the
whereabouts of my little friend. I found her curled up under my mates bed upstairs. I shone a light, to see what was going on, because she could not
be coaxed out. One of her eyes was blood red.
I called my buddy up, and she came home, took the cat to the vets, got some more medication. The cat lasted out another four weeks, but one night she
stayed up howling and mewing to herself the entire night, and by the morning was unable to walk, or do much of anything for herself what so ever. My
buddy had no choice but to take her to the vet, and I found out that the deed had been done while I was at work, mid way through serving a customer. I
finished up with that customer and took a cig break. I could not smoke the cigarette. I was too busy bawling my eyes out in a corner outside!
The reason I went into such detail here, is that I think when you love an animal to the point where it is your friend, part of your life, it strikes
right to the core of your heart when they leave the mortal realm. Animals give their affection almost without condition, so to be absent such fonts of
love all of a sudden is always a system shock. I think anyone who has owned, or interacted on a long term basis with, an animal friend, would agree
that there is no way to suffer such a blow without feeling like someone just crapped right in your chest cavity.