posted on Jan, 18 2014 @ 06:08 AM
First, I am so sorry for your pain. I know sometimes life can paint people into a corner of pain where it seems there is no way out, but life usually
needs our participation to do that.
Bad things happen in this world, no doubt. It's how you deal with them that make you a better person, or a broken soul.
It's been said 'You attract to your life what you most need to learn'. It seems the 'attracted lessons' keep getting harder and harder until you
finally get it for a lot of people.
We all have a part in how our lives unfold. For starters, we teach people how to treat us. If you don't stand up for yourself and don't speak up
when someone is out of line, I guarantee you you, some abusive person will pick up on that and take control of your life. you have to own the part you
play in allowing that to happen before you can change anything.
People tend to be attracted to what they are most familiar with. In your case, unfortunately, you are most familiar with the negative aspects of
human nature, and at a sub-conscious level, that is what you attract to your life. If you were to learn the signs of abusers, you would be able to
spot them a mile away, and be more empowered to keep them out of your life.
If you have a local YWCA, give them a call. Most have women's support groups. ( I'm assuming you're a woman - sorry if I'm wrong.) There are
TONS of self-help books in print, so the library could be a valuable resource for understanding human nature. Any books by Dr. Phil McGraw would be
good; he writes in every-day language that anybody can understand.
Sometimes life can seem awfully complex, and just being able to talk about it can help sort things out. I am guessing that for whatever reason,
counseling is not available to you. There are crisis hot lines you could, and should call. Nobody should have to feel the way you do, unless they want
to. help is out there.
Life may be predestined as far as major events go, but it is how you deal with them that completely changes the course of ones' life. Depth
of character does not come from being handed everything on a silver platter; it comes from facing adversity and rising above it.
You are obviously stronger than you think, or you wouldn't have made it this far. The world needs you, and the lessons you have learned. I will be
rooting for you!