Actually, I won't be alone but I have been. I suppose ATS is like any family though. As much as one may lean on it, you never really know it.
Woah! Phage has a heart! I thought you were the Grinch Phage! lol
I will not be alone, but due to money issues with having to replace my tires and heater core in my car to survive in winter without ending up on the
headline of our local paper, i am only buying gifts for very few, niece and nephew mainly, plus my g/f and parents, and siblings. I will have no money
left until payday in a week and a half, and i hate not having money for many reasons, but I feel I need to buy gifts for the kids in my family, and
those who are buying me something. On top of this my black lab had a tomber removed and while at work he broke his neck cone and chewed his stitches
off, and his left when I came home was wide open
So much for an xmas gift to my lab, guess I will need to bring him in at 7am to get it fixed up
and hope he doesnt get infected or anything, been sitting here holding him on his one side to keep his wound from being touched by ANYTHING, called
the emergency vet but cant afford to go there, and they said to do this until the local vet is open and take him asap. I really hope I can spend xmas
with my best friend beside me but don't know how to keep this from happening again, as I work full time and he over an hours time did the damage. I
wish to everyone happy holidays, and if you are spending it alone, I feel you. I will have family and some friends around, but I feel so bad for not
being able to buy gifts for everyone, as I always receive plenty, and I hate it. Next year I am telling everyone to not get me a single thing,
christmas has turned into a stress-fest for me, and i have so many mixed emotions atm, and the past few years. With my dog wounded I have so many
more, but I need to support myself, over gifts, so I will make it through. This time of year it isn't about religion to me, I am agnostic. But what I
feel it is really for is spending $$$, to make people rich who won't even donate to the needy (walmart *cough*) I wish everyone here a very happy
holiday time of year, and I'll be thinking of you all over some brews, and hope you, if alone, or depressed, to find a way out, that is why I will be
getting drunk and forgetting the reasons I am where I am. I'm a good person, never gone to jail, always do the right things, and even with a decent
paying job, still find myself more in debt every year, so keep you're chin up, because hopefully someday, you will get paid off for everything
endured. I this year, plan to follow my dream, and become a race car driver for a pro team, and put food on the table by finishing well and winning.
It's what I have always done, however it isn't easy. My goal is to go pro, wish me luck.