I did not make my avatar, it was given to me by someone through Iamchist. I was not told who worked on it.
I really like it, as it is an image of Galadriel from the Hobbit I believe. I chose the avatar name of Galadriel because I feel she is a powerful,
wise, sometimes even scary elfin witch of the woods, of the moon and night, of the forest and the enchanted realms.
I have always been a lover of the woods, the trees, the faery world of dreams, poetry and song, of moonlight and stars. I have squooshed a lot of who
I am really down deep inside, and hidden it from the workday world. I am perceptive, intuitive, an empath, a healer, a poetess, and dreamer...I used
to be brimming with femininity and had a magical way of being in the world. But I got a boatload of pain and hurt and loss -- and fear -- and have
lost a lot of that side of me. I seem practical and nose to the grindstone-like now, kinda boring, busy, tired, weak and strong at the same time (I
guess I assume that's how people in my life see me now).
I have lost or buried my intense connection to animals and nature. I used to "know" things easily and effortlessly. I used to have precognition and
clairvoyance. I used to walk around so sure of the unseen and my connection to it. I still love animals and being in nature, but I don't have the
deep, mystical connection I once did. I lost a lot of faith, in others, in myself, in the meaning of life.
Yet, I chose Galadriel as a symbol of what I'd like to reclaim about myself.
Not sure how others "perceive" me via this avatar name or image. Maybe they think I'm just a big nerdy LOTR fan or a wannabe elf
don't know or care who "Galadriel" is and assume I'm supposed to be a fairy or princess or something.
I would like to have a couple alternative avatars to change up once in awhile, but I can't seem to get my avatar pics to work. Would like to
sometimes have a pic of trees or butterflies...or my totem animals - wolf and hawk. Just to reflect my changing mood. But since I'm not handy with
the whole avatar building part - I guess I'll stay Galadriel in name and image for now.
It is really funny though, that how I looked when I was in my late 20s is sort of how my avatar looks, so at times it feels to me that I am using my
own self image -- and I feel "exposed" as if someone could actually recognize me. But, I am not in my 20s and not quite so "thin" as my avatar, so
I guess I'm safe from being id-ed.
But I know somewhere inside me, I still live. Somewhere I am that wise and powerful woman who is connected to the tree spirits and can read the