I don't think everyone read the full OP, Doodle !
I get the impression some of them think you're bringing a rainbow!
I confuse people, I think. In real life. On more than one occasion it has been questioned whether I am gay or not, in casual conversation, not in an
inquisitive way. I'm not. but it makes me think.
All of my life people have assumed things about me. All of my life I have had to defend myself to ignorant idiots. All of my life, for various
reasons, I've had to fight just to be who I am.
At first it was a lot easier to just ignore ignorance and embrace the misconceptions... easier to be the big ugly drunk bastard who'd rather steal
your hand bag than help you across the road. Or punch your face as you wind up your window as I walk by, or push you off a moving bus. It solidified
the armour I've had to wear over many years... and caused me to withdraw entirely for a long long time from what people took for granted.
I just thought less of the world... no matter how much I put forward who I was, people would only see what they want to see, who they expected to see
and nothing else would make any difference.
No one gave a stuff if there was someone else inside, their ignorance was set and they were content with it.
And it's no different today. I get on public transport and people stare as I wander past in case I might sit next to them. People only see the
'criminal' scumbag or the obviously homeless bum... Nothing I can do to change that, almost half a century of wearing the armour to keep those
losers at bay, has become welded to my soul.
People online may never understand that, but even then I had mechanisms in place to make sure no one ever got too close, it's easier to see the
facade and play that role, than put up with the crap that the world incessantly has shown me.
But now I don't really care any more. I've moved my thinking. I see myself as who I am, I don't care who sees what. And that is why I cannot
tolerate AT ALL the ignorance and bigotry I see in this world displayed so openly towards others.
It bloody makes me fume when I see ignorant tossers espousing hate and backward thinking under the guise of free speech, when there are people out
there suffering greatly because of it. People who, unlike me, do not have the luxury of putting on armour and playing the part the world forces them
to play. Or who refuse to do so. I had the means to live that... I am not a small guy, so if someone expected a rough git, they got a rough git.
I see so many innocent people suffering in this world due to religion. Due to backward thinking that these losers smile in ignorance as they attack
people they do not even know.. accusing them of being 'sinners' and being the same as people who engage in bestiality.
I see that being ACCEPTED.. and NOT ANY MORE. I will not be part of it. I unfriended a bunch of idiots on facebook just recently who could not stop
praising this duck dynasty bull#, who go so far as to call that idiot someone they'd vote for president.
I don't even want to be associated with losers like that. Who'd rather live in a world full of hate and discrimination based on sheer ignorance.
Makes my blood boil. In 2013/14 we still have people who think that when they die a big guy in the sky will say "Oh hai guis, you said funny things
about the homos. good work, come in, got a special seat for ya!"...
If it's not attacks on gay people, then it is many other things that get my ire. But rarely do I see such a concerted effort to accept the ignorance,
to justify it, to state it is a right, to claim it as something good and anyone who disagrees is a lower life form.
So.. I've had a number of posts removed over this topic. it creates fire in my skin.
Because while I may never suffer the discrimination that they do, I have suffered it over the years, from the very same sort of people I see attacking
people now. I've had my fair share of ignorance based hate and being me, I had no recourse but to disappear.
I won't stand by and watch that happen in this day and age, to people who have done nothing but live differently to some of those morally bankrupt