I generally don't bother feeling things like this any more,
but there are a few things in there still rattling around
that rises to the level of pissing me off, that I dust off
and feel sometimes.
I'm not pissed off AT 'god'. I never have been. I neither
believe nor disbelieve in 'god'. It would be pointless to
do either one, as there is no way to verify the belief.
Now if people wish to have a god or 'God' in their
intellectual or emotional reference system, I'm
ok with that. If people want to 'pray to 'god'' and
to study exotic systems which include a god or
gods; that's fine with me. It seems a bit intellectually
lazy to do that, but hey, some people want to skip
logical steps and not do all their homework; that's
I in fact see a lot of evidence for a 'field responsive
to consciousness' or perhaps even that 'consciousness
is supreme' and that matter and energy are in fact
emergent properties of consciousness and not the
other way around.
So I'm not hostile to the concept of 'god'.
What always got me pissed off, were the lame ass,
sick minded, ways that people invent a 'god concept'
and then use that 'god concept' to visit evil on their
To invent a 'god' whose main occupation seems to be
damning to eternal hell anyone who doesn't agree
with your personal concept of 'god' does to this
day piss me the f* off.
Here we are, little ape creatures with barely enough
intellect to not destroy ourselves, one little dot on
one little dot in an infinite or near infinite universe,
and presumably 'god' is upset if I don't grovel before
him on Thursday rather than Wednesday, and whether
I boil a kid in it's mother's milk (one of the 'commandments
given to moses by 'god' ')
What sick perverted mind thinks up this stuff? And what's
alarming to me, is that this sick perverted evil has spread
to more than half of the human population, and that being
predestined to be damned before the beginning of the
world before they had done good or evil (Isaiah) is considered
to be a rational and accurate representation of the behavior
of the architect of infinite universes -- who is fine with letting
millions of babies die in agony of AIDS, but who damns to
hell for any minor infraction of a ridiculous bronze age
code of conduct.
Here's the thing that I realized as a very young child about this whole
If God is a kind, loving sort, then it really doesn't matter what
any of us do. But then again, there is no way to know whether
or not God is a kind and loving sort, unless God chooses to
God has never revealed himself. I know lots say that he has;
but if he has revealed himself, and it's important that we
all acknowledge that he has --- then he has failed utterly
and thus could not be God at all.
In short, since it's by definition IMPOSSIBLE to know whether
'god' exists or not (could just be a powerful being faking
and it's by definition IMPOSSIBLE to know whether 'god' is
being truthful or not (who says that 'god' has to follow
human standards of honesty) --- because by definition
'god' would be an all powerful and perfect LIAR,
there is NO POINT WHATSOEVER in obsessing about 'god'.
Either 'god' exists or He doesn't.
Either he's a lying asshole or he isn't.
But by DEFINITION it's impossible to know.
But in any and all cases, there is NOTHING TO BE GAINED
by believing one small human's version over another
small human's version and thinking any of it has
ANY TINY bit of merit.
In my mind, if 'god' exists, then the people who obsess
about him and who torment others with their lame ass
and intellectually lazy and hateful god concept, are
the ones who'd make 'god' go cluck cluck and keep
sending them back to school, until they give up their
lame ass lazy and indefensible obsession with something
they can't possibly know anything about.
And as I'm a loving creature, for whatever reason, I'd
volunteer to come here and keep saying this stuff
until those tormented and conflicted ape creatures
got over themselves and their stanky and pointless
and invalid no basis 'god concept' that does no good
and only exists to control them and hurt others.
I myself 'choose to be a good guy' because I WANT
to be a 'good guy'; not because I believe some
sick psychos version of what 'god is' when they
couldn't possible know or speak for 'god'.
That felt a little good.
edit on 12/7/2013 by tothetenthpower because: (no reason given)