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I've just found myself wanting to actually move forward in my life for the first time ever, my doctor literally said, I can't help you, someone else will be in touch.
reply to post by infoseeker26754
Im not the clown in the avatar.
That avatar is simple anonymity with the added implications of my taste in film and humour.
I'm not on medication. Well, other than the Californian way.
I keep myself calm as much as possible.
I do work, maybe not in the best profession for me, but it has sort of helped me a little.
I work as a night porter in a hotel, I do come into lots of contact with general public. But I don't give them my self when I talk or anything, I give them a fake version of myself and it works.
God knows what my co workers think when they see how I talk to customers and then see an instant change when I talk to them being more me.
I've spent too much time out of work in my life so I'm not gonna drop this until I'm secure in another job, but my anxiety really hinders my ability to perform well in interviews and even phone conversations, though phone conversations have improved with this job. Not that I've put it into practice outside of this.
All my jobs have been gained through either a family member or friend.
edit on 23-11-2013 by Chukkles because: (no reason given)
I very much appreciate what you're all saying and for taking the time to read.edit on 23-11-2013 by Chukkles because: (no reason given)