originally posted by: LesMisanthrope
a reply to: muzzleflash
Waiting for more....
Yikes I'm actually being watched haha! That was a surprise.
Sorry the last few days have been...chaotic. Last few weeks and months as well.
I'll put it this way...I don't really care about paying rent...but the rent recipient sure is caring about it!
So currently that's the issue
. Writing stuff is more important but I gotta afford the privilege first, hah.
I guess it sounds really silly, but I do believe that if I merely keep following my dreams and do what I love doing that the $$$ issue will solve
itself. I realize that will take a load of luck but it's not impossible. I haven't figured it out yet. But I have never given up on myself and I do
not intend to, so I'll probably believe that for a very long time and keep aiming for something above reasonable.
I haven't stopped writing or anything, I'm coming up with a lot of stuff but usually I just add a link to the notepad and 2 or 3 words to remember
what the idea was, and save it for later (I keep skipping steps which I need to stop doing). I'm only halfway done adding what I wanted to in this
thread but yet I keep coming up with 'whole new thread ideas', at least one a week roughly. Some of them I can merge into each other after thinking
about it. It's a huge unorganized mess (my notepad), and tons of stuff is getting buried before it's posted.
I actually didn't really feel like anyone wanted more, even though I thought they should. So I do admit a bit of a morale/motivation drop over the
last year or so, which has held me back considerably.
I already decided long ago that I'd probably keep at it simply because 'doing this' is one of the only valid sources of pleasure I actually get to
have in life. I admit there are many displeasing aspects to 'doing this', but knowing inside that I did the right thing is good enough to override
the plentiful negatives.
I'm pretty committed to it now so I guess it doesn't really matter if anyone else cared or not *(something I keep trying to remind myself). But if
people are gonna actually read it? Wow I better up my game and get to work!
I have to admit it feels really Good to have someone ask for more...
I want to give more. I will.
I'll find the time and write.