posted on Nov, 9 2013 @ 05:53 AM
I have been charged for Earth. My mission is to comfort and be loyal to a human male and be his. I am to protect and love him for he is of good energy
for this existence and needs to learn how to control his passions and anger for future progress and stipulated plans in his destiny. I am very much
looking forward to meeting him and have waited for an opportunity to prove my humility for a while and this lesson, I hope, will prove me well. It is
a most honorable task and I have volunteered wholeheartedly. I feel I am ready.
I express this now, to remember once again when I am able, it will also serve as a core promise I must keep with me on my task. May it echo with me
while I am stripped of all memory and face the instincts and programming of the biological creature I will be. As small as this part is in the chain
of events that never stop, may I play it as one most devout. I am ready, let it begin.
A Pup Is Born
Cold. I start to cry, I cannot bare this cold. I must find warmth but all I can do is cry. Warmth covers me as I am licked clean. Cold air fills my
lungs and my body trembles but again warmth from she who birthed me. I must find more warmth with her. I move and try to get to the warmth. I am so
hungry. I hear others that smell like me crying too. I can feel them all around me and more each passing moment. We are all in want, we are cold, we
are hungry but we give each other warmth.
I move where my nose leads, then I am pushed into she and she is so warm and smells so good. I am searching to quench the thirst of my hunger. I find
it. Delicious. I care of nothing but this deliciousness but I am pushed, I must push back and take again my kill. Delicious. I am cold no more, nor
hungry, but I must sleep...
I Can See
Pain! Glorious pain! I know not what is happening but it is overwhelming and all of wonder. There is a cry from the warm ones that smell like me, who
push me during feeding, I see motion. They smell, they cry, and now they move. She who birthed me is the biggest motion of all and I have much warmth
her! I feel joy, I want to show those who smell like me that I am stronger and will drink when I want! I growl and bite one, he growls too and pushes
me. The others fight too. This is of much joy and I wish the still and cold one would fight back but she does not move and is hard. Hunger again, and
after I mist sleep. Delicious.
Much bright and dark has come and gone many times, I have lost my pack and I am so frightened and alone. The tall ones had made mother not move with a
hard noise she could not chew through. She yelled and pulled on the hard noise but it held her head in the same spot as we were taken far away from
our warm den and her. I was thrown and abandoned in an unfamiliar place with no brothers or sisters. I am hungry, so very hungry but I dare not leave
this hidden place for I know not where I am or what to do. I can hear tall ones I have never smelled before and they frighten me so much I whimper.
I should not have done that! Why did I whimper? Now a tall one has found me in my hidden shelter. How could he have found me? Only I can fit under
this den and now he is on all his paws looking at me, I urinate. Oh good he is going away; no he is opening the den? What is this sound? I know this
sound and smell. The same as how we moved far away before I was abandoned! Oh no this is another fast moving den. I hate this frightening sound and
this smell that takes your breath! I will run, I must run away from here!
The frightening noise has stopped? Oh why was I too afraid to run away! I can think of nothing else but yelping as I am grabbed by the tall one! He is
putting something around my head. The tall one can make my head follow him, I have no joy for this. I must fight against it. I can not, it is pain and
I must follow. We walk until we reach a place where the tall one makes three noises on a den. Another tall one comes from the den and they bark at
each other until my head now follows the other tall one. I am so frightened and hungry. But this tall one touches me like my mother and it feels good.
He barks at me softly and touches me, I did not know tall ones could do this. He makes my head stay in a small space and then goes in the den. I smell
something good. The tall one gives me feed and I can not even breath as I feed as fast as I can before I am pushed and it is taken from me. The tell
one gives me drink and I drink so much while he touches me and barks softly. He puts soft on the ground and I sit on the warm soft. The tall one
enters and shut the den. The tall one gives a loud angry bark every time I whimper; I stop frightened he might bite me. My head can not move from this
small spot and I can not whimper with out the tall one barking loud at me so I lay quiet on the warm soft. I am frightened but with no hunger or
thirst I sleep. Delicious.
Much bright and dark has come and gone many times. I was in sleep and in sleep a female tall one I have never seen before made me see that my tall one
was full of warmth for me and that I had to have warmth for him and protect him and our den. I do, every time I see my tall one I feel more warmth for
him. He provides feed and drink always and takes the hard noise from my head so we can run in the grass and mountains. I am bad sometimes and try to
feed on the cluckers that are his kills and he bites me hard and pushes me with much pain, but it is very hard for me not too. He is very alone after
he bites and pushes me and seems frightened and the more frightened I feel after he bites me the more alone and frightened he is. He can get very
angry and his teeth show and I try not to kill the cluckers. But I have much warmth for my tall one and would die to protect him and our den. The good
thing is, he touches me like mother and whimpers after he bites me, I like the touch but his whimper makes me whimper too. He does not like to bite
but, like me killing cluckers, he can only try not too.
Because of the female tall one in my sleep, I will try hard to not take his kills when he goes far away when it is bright. I am very alone when he
goes far away but, I am so full of joy when he comes back at dark. I would like my head to have a big space to move but the hard noise can not be
chewed through because ones that smell like me mate with me while my tall one is away. But, I do feel all the warmth for my tall one and the den. We
are a good pack.