posted on Oct, 24 2013 @ 03:55 PM
Interesting post here. You've asked some very good questions, and I get the sense you have a seekers heart. Correct me if I'm wrong here, but
you strike me as somebody who has a hard time rationalizing the belief in a literal "God" as taught my major religions. Almost as if mentally it's
impossible for you to conceptualize it's existence when you sense so many holes in religious ways. But the battle is the emotional/spiritual aspect
of you here.
This is because God has created a built in desire to seek the truth, know the truth and ultimately be liberated by truth. It's what Jesus
always referred to when he said, "And the truth shall set you free". It's an inner battle, because our conscious minds for the most part are not
aware of our subconscious minds, in the same way our flesh is not compatible with the spirit. It's impossible for anybody to convince you to believe
in "God" And you're right when you say that scripture quoting ( even though I did it here) Is hard to convince one otherwise, because the very
source ( the bible) is the very mystery itself. Is it divinely inspired and truly the secret to life's greatest mysteries and most ancient pursuit of
man, or is it a form of control created by Man used as a tool to deceive the masses.
I think you need to continue searching with a pure heart. As long as you search with a pure heart the truth will find you, not the other way
around. God is a mystery to not just anyone, but everyone. Even the Preacher who seems to have it all together, and speaks with such elegance,
charisma and confidence will have nights where he goes home reads the newspaper and see's the events going on in the world today and will question
his faith, question why there has to be so much pain and suffering etc... He will be human just like everyone else and maybe have tons of vices like
Alcoholism, gambling, an obsession with porn etc...
Don't ever let anybody ever convince you that you need to know all the answers, and if you don't obtain those answers within a short
timeframe you will suffer for eternity. I promise you this coming from one who believes in Jesus Christ. Man made religion is flawed, but God's holy
spirit is not. Every good thing that exists in the world today, love, hope, faith, courage, integrity, compassion, wisdom etc.. comes in the form of
the Holy Spirit once it aligns within the spirit of a human being. The irony? It's not just one religion that experiences this phenomena. It's like
you hinted at earlier many people seem to have these moments where life changes drastically and rapidly for them and they "find God". Skeptics will
always say this usually happens when one encounters death in the family, has a near death experience themselves. They say it's because you become
afraid of death and thus have to buy into an illusion and a lie for self preservation sake. But the truth is, many people do experience things that
are so similar and parallel in their descriptions and sense of "God" and "Light" that it would actually be insane to chalk it up to coincidence.
I know what's its like to be so confused man, to feel like everybody is selling something and pulling you one way, while another
group pulls you the other. The thing that has really helped change things around for me when I'm in the pits of despair, is to just subtly pray to
God and envision peace, envision yourself experiencing it and feeling liberated within. If you ask God to reveal himself to you, truth is you don't
need a book ( although the holy spirit will encourage you and awaken you to truths in there), a preacher or any teaching to teach you where to go
next. This is because the truth is written in our hearts. We know right or wrong in our hearts before any teacher indoctrinates us on their
interpretation of right or wrong. This is all because of the holy spirit. It works within us all. Anytime you've done something good it is inspired
by God's spirit , because he is the author or all that is good. And anytime you do something in your heart you feel guilty for, normally it's
temptation from the darker domains that have managed to tease you with the bait of some forbidden fruit , and managed to create pain in your life.
God will never give up us though. If you humbly take the way of the cross, like Jesus did and truly seek to know the truth and experience
God, to do the right thing even when it's not popular, or convenient but rather just because it's the right thing to do you will be blessed and led
towards further understanding. Jesus truly was the Son of God, but its not enough to hear about him, you have to experience his holy spirit and
experience a shift where your eyes begin opening and you see the truth in a way you couldn't before. I promise you this, all the charismatic
movement in Christianity that emphasizes a literal eternal hellfire, and strives to evangelize and "win souls for Jesus" so they can sleep easier at
night are all movements that don't come from God. Almost every church is cursed actually because they have turned the sacred truths into clever
deception, and are focusing on all worldy things and therefore destroying the reputation of genuine believers . It's normally the ones who suffer the
most, who have to be lone rangers and don't fall in line with the masses, who will know the truth. Nobody can keep God in a box, and claim to know
all his attributes, intentions, characteristics. God is a mystery, but a mystery that can be experienced when you choose to take a stand and say , "
I want to know you". The way is the straight and narrow man, try to do your best to avoid TV, too much internet, get in touch with nature, be
charitable, eat as natural as possible, pray and truly focus on the beauty of all Gods creation. Don't allow the Powers that be to keep you in a
Praying for you man, always fight the good fight