posted on Oct, 22 2013 @ 01:05 AM
I would like to share a story with the ATS community, if I may. My story is one that is not only precognitive in nature
but life changing as well..
In May of 2013 my mother was diagnosed with AML a very aggressive and deadly form of Leukemia..The doctors informed my family and I that even with
chemotherapy 7 months was the maximum life expectancy. Like so many others have experienced at this type of news, I was no less than devastated.
Since I was the R.N. in the family I knew that everyone would be looking to me for interpretations, my opinion and some fleeting bit of hope..Of
course it did not help that I had spent a few years in the field of Oncology and Hematology; One of th few times in life i regretted having gone into
Nursing at all!
Little did anyone know I was thrown past a state of panic into a full blown state of terror at the second I received the news! I hid it well from my
parents but not the friend that was with me. Ya see, I had a deep secret. I was literally not only terrified by the thought of my own death, but
just as much by the death of someone I loved and was very close to. How was I ever gonna deal with this? I could not even bring myself to say the
Two weeks later I experienced a life changing event. the night was June 14, 2013 as usual I had gone to bed late. By this time I was no longer
consumed by my mom's cancer but had slipped happily into the place of "she will be fine" She is gonna beat this" "Gonna be tough but she can do
it" I was not over tired and was able to drift off without a problem.
The next morning I awoke to the most incredible feeling of peace that i had ever known. I literally woke up with a smile upon my face and a warm
feeling that embodied me.. Quickly, my reality came crashing in and I remembered thinking my mom has cancer, why am i at peace? Then I remembered my
very vivid dream!
To begin with, I always dream in muted colors, like sepia or black and white. This dream was in brilliant color! Okay so, that fact was not even of
great importance....the content and the way I received the information was different, than anything I had ever experienced.
In this dream I was with my mother and it was a much earlier time in life. I was a teenager and she looked exactly the way as i had remembered her
from my 9th grade year. We were in the house I grew up in standing in the kitchen when she said to me " Honey I need to talk to you a minute." I
responded not to concerned as i would have back then and said ok. That is when she looked me in the eye and said "Later on in my life I will get
Leukemia I will have a bone marrow transplant and it will work. However, I will die of complications anyway. I need to know you are gonna be
alright, so I can go home with Jesus" With tears in my eyes I reassured her i would be okay and that it was alright for her to go. I kissed her
forehead and in that instant she was gone. She just disappeared.
In that exact moment the room filled with the most gorgeous colors of sunlight I had ever seen. I said to myself "Wow it's gonna be beautiful for a
Sunday" Then i awoke.......
As time went on i began to wrestle with this dream. Was this a telling of the future or was this my own fear acting act in my sub conscious state?
a week or 2 went by and i had to tell someone. I told my dream to my husband to get his opinion and he just said he did not know...i however, thought
By this time a bone marrow transplant had been ruled out but a stem cell transplant was being highly considered.
My mother underwent a stem cell transplant Dec.4, 2012..By Dec. 20th 2012 it was noted that her cancer was in remission and she had started to form
new baby white cells. Success!
In the months to follow she would be re hospitalized 7 times..Each and every time she was on death doorstep.
After 16 months of a long hard battle my mom lost the fight. She died September 15, at 6:27am, A Sunday morning in the North Ga. Mountains just as the
sun was coming up.....she died completely cancer free but from the inability to absorb the nutrients the body needs to gain weight and build
muscle....Oddly enough it was a beautiful day.
In conclusion I can say I needed those 16 months to prepare and let her go.....I fully believe God sent the Holy Spirit to me to tell me so I would
make the most of our time left and be able to live on in peace..
A very real and true story. Would love to hear your thoughts as to why I was forewarned.
Thank you for your time and letting me share.