Introducing Myself

I'm a 52 year old, highly-functioning (supposedly) autistic dude.
I'm one of those people who was pretty much raised by wolves /
locked in a closet and beaten for my first 19 years. Those are
metaphors, as I don't want to give identifiable info, but it's
close enough for government work.

However I've always been highly contrary; if you beat me.. well
I get beat up bad, bleed on you, and stain your nice clothes.
And I hurt.. and bleed and hurt.. and get way more defiant..
and a stronger ego.

I'm really brainy.. well at least I was until I hit the beer too much..
that's a long story for another day. I've started a 2 million dollar
profit company. I work in technology at a very senior design
level for a fortune "x" company.

I'm really well read on a lot of topics.. a lot of topics.. I once
held a secret security clearance in the military.. I'm no stranger
to nuclear power.

I try to use my rational mind every chance I get.. I try to practice
'observer perspective' on myself.. as I have no automatic social
skills.. and I'm prone to delusions of grandeur and bouts of
self-assigned pseudo-messiah-hood.

I'd feel comfortable disabling/reassembling most nuclear reactors..
or complex IT systems.. I'd give almost anything technical a shot.

Now in a perfect world I might be able to let it go at that.. maybe
try to take over Latveria or something.. but no.. in my heart of heart
I'm a mystical sort.

For example I've studied the so-called Kundalini phenomenon "first hand"
for more than 40 years. I've written semi-scholarly papers on the subject
and tried to find research assistance.. to bring this poorly understood
thing into the light of science. Of course I've had no takers.

Frankly, I'm totally crazed. The things I keep secret inside my head would
make various people tremble. I'm nearly completely rational.. and totally
crazed at the same time. Without any cognizant dissonance whatsoever..
as my 'mysticism' is all explainable with science, in my perspective.

It's only recently that I've become fascinated with the concepts of so-called
'ancient aliens' and 'the illuminati', and various 'new' fringe topics.

Frankly I'd like to solve all these mysteries to some degree.. and then move
onto something more worthwhile.. of course that is my ego.. I have a massive,
but somewhat transparent ego.. I need that ego.. when I peer into the void
so to speak. I smacked the so-called (fake) '5th buddha' in the face some decades
ago.. (was a 'TAS' stooge) while 10,000 people watched. I don't like spiritual
fakes/bullies.

As for my name.. yah.. this isn't my name.. well not exactly... I Am 1/4
Lakota Sioux and my grandma was a full blooded medicine woman.. but
I only met her when I was 2. I have no actual link to any native americans
though I would love to meet some.

I also blew up my nervous system so bad that I almost died a few years
back... NirviKalpa samahdi you know.. thought I was dead.. all heat
left my body.. muscles all released.. couldn't use my rational mind
for almost 2 days. I've been comfort eating too much, and have given
myself high blood sugar.. I'm trying to recover my health.. that may
or may no happen. Dunno. Just another messed up human.

Well there you go... just your basic farm boy with a penchant for being
a legend in my own mind.

I'd like to think that I've learned to laugh at myself and moderate my
annoyingness... I guess you guys and gals will be the judge of that.

I'm uncertain whether I know anything that would interest anyone,
and in any case, I feel obliged to be mysterious and not share the
majority of what I actually DO know. LOL. Not because anyone
would kill me (like that would matter..) but because I don't care
to make an ass out of myself in front of the relatively "normal"
cough* ATS humans.

KPB

reply to post by KellyPrettyBear


Hi there...I'm 43 and not right in the head according to a lot of people...but that's their problem.Nice intro...your a writer.Welcome and take care.

reply to post by SarnholeOntarable


Thanks.... really more of a technical writer.. and not fully
up to par with grammar and rhetoric; but down and dirty
is fine for most company documentation.

I have written two complete books of about 200 pages,
but I threw those away, as one is supposed to do, as
such first books are full of self-congratulatory mewing.

Nobody would ever publish me. so I write as a way to
express my deepest feelings --- cathartic you know.

Look at what 'sanity' has done to this planet ---
it's overrated.

Thanks for welcoming me! It means a lot.

KPB

Welcome. Thanks for being so candid about yourself. Feel like I know you because of your thoroughness. Wish I had those technical skills. Maybe I could avoid dropping my computer off at best buy. That's always a bummer to have to do. Anyway - looking forward to your next posts.

reply to post by KellyPrettyBear


Your killing me...double welcome ensues of course.

reply to post by Dianec


Thanks for the kind welcome.

Actually I love the sound of my own voice.. it takes
very little encouragement to make me drone on
for quite some time, about nearly any topic.

Don't ever make the mistake of encouraging me.

I'd gladly give 40 points of IQ away, or 1/2 my
technical skills or both, to overcome that which
drags me down.

Everybody has something which punches their
ticket.

KPB

KellyPrettyBear
I'm uncertain whether I know anything that would interest anyone,
and in any case, I feel obliged to be mysterious and not share the
majority of what I actually DO know. LOL. Not because anyone
would kill me (like that would matter..) but because I don't care
to make an ass out of myself in front of the relatively "normal"
cough* ATS humans.

KPB

'

We all make an ass out of ourselves at some point. I've learned the hard way. You're obviously wise. Age and all

I get the feeling you've got something to offer to ATS that we've not heard. By the way, I know your real name.

reply to post by Mugen


Did I eat an omelet 2 weeks ago Thursday morning? If so,
give the 3 letter acronym of the place I ate. (don't spell
it out please!).

Either way that was fast! Bravo.

There are only 4 people on earth who should know who I am,
based upon the info I gave. I knew this. I willingly gave
that much info and knew when I crossed the line. Felt it.

I'm not all that terribly worried about 'hiding' my identity.

I would like to think that I have something to offer.. or I
wouldn't have decided to adopt this place for the time
being.

KPB

I'm uncertain whether I know anything that would interest anyone,
and in any case, I feel obliged to be mysterious and not share the
majority of what I actually DO know. LOL. Not because anyone
would kill me (like that would matter..) but because I don't care
to make an ass out of myself in front of the relatively "normal"
cough* ATS humans.

Are you kidding? Nuclear, IT, fringe, "Crazed"...

Welcome, welcome (bowing, backing away, gesturing--) come in, come in. Make yourself at home. You will do very well here. Help us uncover the truth thats just behind the veil.

regards,

intrptr

KellyPrettyBear
reply to post by Mugen

 

Did I eat an omelet 2 weeks ago Thursday morning? If so,
give the 3 letter acronym of the place I ate. (don't spell
it out please!).

KPB

Nope. You had to split the omelet with your wife.

AOS.

reply to post by intrptr


Thanks for the warm welcome.

Ishtar's Veil?
Maya's Veil?

It's always a hot woman who is veiled.

She may SAY no man lifts her veil with
her lips, but her eyes are saying yes, yes.
(talking about mystery school symbolism here).

Well only her husband lifts her veil.. so
that means you have to marry her.

But I'm sure you meant that in the usual
vernacular in this case, not according
to the mysteries.

Every heard of the principle of confusion?

That's the principle that runs our society.
Now the question is to which degree it
is due to evolutionary psychology, or
whether blokes in black hats also
play a role.. or whether in fact the
zoo or simulation hypothesis are a more
apt description.

LOL

KPB

reply to post by Mugen


WELL. Quite the interesting response.

KPB

reply to post by KellyPrettyBear

It's always a hot woman who is veiled.

She may SAY no man lifts her veil with
her lips, but her eyes are saying yes, yes.

Ha-ziinng! No problem with that veil.

I was referring in my mind to the veil that separates lies from the truth. And maybe the man behind the curtain in the Land of OZ.

If you are knowledgable in nuclear power there is an ongoing thread here about Fukushima that would welcome your expertise. I know a little and also have questions from time to time about press releases and wild stories we hear.

Looking...

Here it is:

www.abovetopsecret.com...

There are some really knowledgable people and some pseudo scientists. Also, a dis-info agent. Watch out for them. Check it out. A good way to keep up with the current events over there.

Edit to add: Feel free to jump in and share what you know. Its a complex science, little understood by the vast majority. Ability would go far there. You can also start your own thread on issues after 20 posts.

See ya around!

reply to post by intrptr


Danke Shon.

KPB

reply to post by KellyPrettyBear


Makes sense.