posted on Oct, 5 2013 @ 08:50 AM
I am a 25 year old father that after experiencing a bad break up, had my son taken away from me by the woman I still love. I am here because I am lost
and depressed and I need more motivation. I am sinking in my own depression.
A little bit about the break up. I dated a girl for 2 years before we had our first child. After my son was born things went okay for a while but
arguing started to take it's tole on the relationship. I became more distant, she became a pathological liar (or just started showing it). These two
things alongside our parents wanting us to separate is what inevitably ruined the relationship. She continued to lie more, I continued to distance
myself from her and it was finished in a passionate showdown of words.
Since the original break up. After the break up, we hung out and hooked up a bit. Spent family time together etc. Shortly after that she stopped
responding as much. She had only let me take my son 2x's since the break up a year and a half ago. It became apparent rather quickly (within 3 months)
that from that point on, she wouldn't be allowing me to take my son. She still let me see him but after weeks of not responding to calls or emails...
God forbid I show up at her house to see my son. So from there own it's only gotten worse. She has't responded in 2 months and they last time she let
me see my son was march 11 2013, my sons birthday.
So by now a lot of you are asking, why haven't you taken her to court? I'd never admit it to her but one of the reasons I love my son as much as I do
is because of how much I love her... My love of her is also a burden to me. In my eyes, she took my son away from me. Something I didn't (edited did
to didn't) deserve because of how our relationship fell apart. Truth is, she really does know how much I love my son. She let him fall partly down the
stairs once and I got heated on her (not the best thing to do) or when she went out at a party and gave my son to a stranger to # a guy she hadn't
seen in 5 years I flipped. I'd kill her if it meant my son wouldn't be mistreated like that and she knows that. I think she has fear of my son loving
me more than her.
I am just unable to forcefully take him back because the woman I love took him away from me in my time of emotional collapse.
How do I overcome this, how do I become stronger and force this on her?
edit on 5-10-2013 by Antipathy17 because: Reasons I hadn't posted his name is my brother reads the site and im keeping low
edit on 5-10-2013 by Antipathy17 because: (no reason given)