posted on Oct, 1 2013 @ 09:05 PM
Well, welcome to ATS Serpo.
You know when I first got here, I thought I would be sharing some of my more wild and unexplainable occult experiences to. I do a lot of meditated
writing (automatic writing), dream journaling, and thought experiments. Plus, I've an occult young adulthood filled with remarkably odd experiences
in the OTO tradition of ritual magick. I learned fairly quickly, to refrain from sharing those aspects of myself fully or candidly. For I would be
opening myself up for sport - hateful, mentally abusive attacks on my own experiences they weren't there to say yea or nay about!
Oh, I still share, but I do it in bits and pieces here and there, spread out across different threads. I've also learned to grow alligator skin.
It helps absorb the shock of an attack over an internet post on a conspiracy site.
Some people, simply know not what they do. Or if they do, they get some sort of delight in belittling others. There are people like that in the world.
There just is. It's learned behavior. Some attachments too. I try to remember that, and try to imagine what sort of parents and childhood that might
produce such a trait in a person. I then can try to empathize and forgive. It's how I deal with the more abrasive and rude posters. Learned behavior
you've been taught from the cradle, is the hardest behaviors to change. Often times, they cannot help themselves.
So if your going to share, highly speculative personal experiences - brace yourself. You will draw these sorts to you like a moth to flame. You either
get in the ring and develop your own way of dealing with the bully personality types, or you sit on the sidelines. A wallflower - on the outside,
looking in. They're not going to change. First, they don't think there is anything wrong with their behavior, they justify it and feel justified in
the way they treat others. Also, they don't how to. Change, that is.
Well anyways, welcome to your journey down the rabbit hole. Give yourself time, you'll find your groove.