However, you come across as both intelligent and well written (Combined with that you are talking about putting a book on Amazon, I suspect you
have some kind of professional background involving writing?),
Naw. I have a real job, heh. It's just a long boring case study I wrote for a friend nearly 20 years ago (been on the internet free all this time) and
that my best friend after many years of effort has convinced me to make more formal. I've had a lot of feedback on it over time that encouraged me to
think it was worth the effort. I don't expect to actually make any money on it, unless time vs. income at about .003 cents an hour counts...
I do write fiction on occasion over the last couple decades but have never tried to publish anything. (One I'm working on currently, finished but in
draft form, is a sort of post-post apocalyptic novel. Nothing woo in it. Others have some paranormal elements. One not complete is loosely based on my
case study experiences.) I'd like to get around to doing so (publishing). I've been a single mom and my job often requires far more than fulltime
work, so to be honest I just haven't really had the time or energy to focus on anything outside job and kid and some webstuff and (equally boring to
others) blogging. Kid is 17 now and, when she is not giving me the occasional attack of rage or panic, is not requiring nearly the time investment she
used to until just recently, so I'm finally getting the ability to do more of something for me.
so surely you realise all of the above already?
I agree that outside spirituality (which is no explanation for anything, but cabala traditions have a surreal [to the point of rather mind boggling]
correlation to my experiences despite I have no interest in that 'religion'), and theoretical physics [which alas are only theory and we have no
science yet on how this interacts with human perception], combined with what I'll call 'interference' factors [the latter being a somewhat too common
unhealthy fascination with experimental psychology and technology on the part of our people and possibly others], there does not seem to be a viable
model to contain such experiences.
I tend to consider the above pretty viable though, but unfortunately difficult to work through since it mostly results in either wide-eyed woo (for
the spirit), secret occult (for the QBLH), and mind-control paranoia (for the interference).
I admit to being curious as to where you are angling with this considering that your own experiences appear to not be measurable or verifiable
in any way and as such would be a difficult story to sell to a ufology community in the current day?
Not my goal at all (or I wouldn't have written something to be informative instead of entertaining, and wouldn't have had it free online all this
time). Aside from which I think it ended up sounding more like a psychological case study than anything else, despite clear physiological symptoms. I
don't really have anything vested in there being one answer instead of another on such matters. I don't know the answer(ssss) myself.
Actually, I don't much like what little I've seen of the 'ufology community' so probably the last thing I'd want to do is anything 'geared to' that
genre... my experiences merely are what they are and as many of them have nothing to do with that field (if not more) than do.
I read a couple Vallee books I liked, and one by Richard Thompson (on Vedic history vs. modern lore) I loved. I was blown away when I found the Walton
account (in the 90s, though it was new to me) as it had similarities with some of my experiences. I didn't much like the Jacobs book I read back in
'95 or so, although some elements were disturbingly similar to a few of my own, but that mostly just upset me because I didn't like the model he has
it in. I talked with some people about the topic for about 1.5-2 years back in the mid 90s, some of whom I respected a great deal but they seldom if
ever posted public things, and many of whom I considered psychologically unstable, who seemed to feel obliged to post as publicly as possible lol. I'm
a little cynical about info obtained via hypnosis, though I admit some of the elements on occasion match what I believe to be genuine experiences of
my own and these were not usually related to so-called aliens at all.
And I mostly find the idea of aliens-from-space hilariously entertaining but unlikely to be the situation, although nothing is impossible and perhaps
'everything' is going on, hence the immense confusion on the topic.
Or were your original questions generally posed with no context in mind?
Mostly just a knee-jerk reaction to reading a couple threads on ATS where everyone seemed to feel they absolutely KNEW(tm) the reason, cause, answer,
etc. behind such experiences, and since the going theories don't seem to be getting anybody anywhere, I just wondered if there was any hope at all for
It seems like if the models that are dominating the 'ufology field' aren't leading anywhere that maybe some different models are needed (although
perhaps the real problem is that the models most likely to be key, such as physics, we simply do not have the science to support at this time).
But it seems unlikely we're going to get any new models or ideas on the topic when either everyone-already-knows-the-answer or, of course, is arguing
there is no answer because there's no experience (outside insanity or fraud) to begin with.
I was just curious to others' thoughts on it in general. I didn't really have a context besides the one given.
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