I’ve been able to see and feel energy since the age of 20, 21 years ago. I was always sensitive and had episodes of deja vu , premonitions, dreams
It first happened while walking along a beachside, rainforest track with my ex. I stated to see shimmery, misty, moving, red/pink/violet with some
blue/green energy in the air and running through forms. Also glowing lines of energy with fractal patterns, connecting things and composing things. It
was amazing! And I had a deep sense of love and connectedness.
I grabbed a particularly inviting looking overhanging branch, it felt good, I could feel a vibration, and energy started radiating out from it. At
this point my ex said “I can see that, the energy” and then I was completely overwhelmed by joyous emotion, as my belief system did not
incorporate such phenomena up until that point, and I had thought I might be hallucinating.
She had always seen it and called it “the pattern” and had been told, by relatives who could also see, not to talk about it. An echo of the
This is the ethric pattern that underlies and forms reality, uncollapsed wave forms and mandala like information.
I’ve seen various beings, ghosts, elementals, shadows and nasties.
Occasionally the glowing, fractally line things take up large portions of my field of vision. The lines sort of open up into more fractals, moving
shapes and colours, which is somewhat disconcerting because it feels a little like going blind, unable to see normally. I’ve found in these
situations that I just “know” the way, and if I trust this, I don’t walk into doors or anything. It looks beautiful.
Everything also seems to flicker, vibrate and be composed of little light balls, the Tibetans call them thigle, those that still have the traditional
wisdom paint them. Bruce Cathie has some interesting theories about this, that say reality cycles between matter and antimatter/energy the whole time
and our brains fill in the gaps. When you begin to be conscious in these gaps, you start to see energy, through time and space.
Thigle – Literally means “drops” and is traditionally used to describe ‘spheres of rainbow light’ which is the ground substance reality.
In traditional Buddhism it is sometimes understood to be a very specific form or shape. However, from a Buddha Brats perspective it is the actual
visual experience of the true nature of the universe experienced as particles of light which are seen as spinning or moving dots or wheels, both large
and small. It can also sometimes be observed as squiggles or moving shafts of light.
More precisely its ‘nature’ can be described as Dakini (sky dancer) because of the way it constantly moves around. Its ‘form’ can be described
as that of Daka (sky flower) when one sees the specific form that the light particles take. This gives one a direct experience of Dakini and Daka as
moving, dancing light.
The practical experience is somewhat similar to that of static visible on a television screen. A good way of becoming aware of it is to look directly
at clouds on a humid day. When one looks at it one can see these tiny sparks of light jumping around all over the place. These particles of light
can sometimes be seen to be strung together in strands or at other times form part of large spiralling discs.
Another example is to look at a dense arrangement of plants just after doing some strenuous exercise. Often at these times one sees the leaves
making a kind of spinning circle.
The trick is to realise that this is the true nature of reality, emptiness containing moving bits of energy. Once one experiences this, it is
important to remember that everything is made of the same substance, including ones own body.
It is also imperative to remember that it is in fact a projection from your heart and exiting through your eyes, playing out ‘out there’.
This provides one with a direct visceral experience of the Nature of the Mind and the more one integrates it the more one is liberated. This is often
described as the process of Thogal.
Usually I can tell what people are like and sometimes I get a very clear sense of a “wrongun”. Deeply disturbed people react strangely to me,
sometimes to the point of completely unprovoked violence.
A good example of this would be an encounter a few years back, in a supermarket. I spotted a homeless looking dude, elderly, all black clothes,
various demon and skull rings and lol, a wooden staff with a plastic demon skull glued on top. At the same time he saw me and got what could only be
called a fright, he jumped. I’m not particularly physically imposing although I have trained in martial arts since childhood.
He then proceeded to pull out a large folding knife from a pouch on his belt. I moved towards some cans of beans, intending to throw one at him. Just
before he had the blade fully locked out he seemed to come to, he looked around, realised he was in a store and put the knife back.
The end? Not quite, then he got out some Australian indigenous clapping sticks and performed a little muttering, clapping dance, he seemed to be
attempting some sort of protective/aggressive spell.
One things for sure, I aint in Kansas anymore.
Anyway, thanks for listening to my ramblings.