posted on Sep, 18 2013 @ 01:43 PM
I've been posting here for a little bit and lurking for a whole lot longer. I've created a few threads mostly dealing with dreams or the paranormal
(both which facsinate me). More often than not I'll post a reply if I feel my insight or experience is helpfull otherwise I'll leave a lighthearted
remark and leave it at that. This is by design not coincidence (and hopefully I don't come off as a blithering idiot).
Disclaimer: this is not a feel bad for Roma post.
Here's a little about me and some insight as to why I do this. It was eight years ago when I lost my younger sister and only sibling to breast
cancer. She was remarkably brave and to this day I still call her my hero. I tell you this: there is almost nothing more than the loss of a loved
one to remind you how precious and fragile life is. I said almost nothing...
Fast forward a year and I find myself in a doctor's office being diagnosed with bladder cancer. I had known something was wrong for a while and
after a successful surgery the doctor put me at a better than 50% chance for a reocurrance due to the size and depth of the tumor.
Now, bladder cancer isn't horrible the first time around (as far as cancers go). Any reocurrance however can be deadly. This means I wake up every
morning knowing I've got a better than 50% chance to have my life cut short by disease. Sucks, huh? No...not really and I'll tell you why. It
forces you to see whats' really important: health, family and friends. These things are irreplacable. (I know someone out there is thinking
Obamacare will fix this). It also forced me to make a choice. I can either sit there and worry about it or I can do my best to truly live what time
I have left.
I am always reminded of the part in The Last Samurai where they talk about Bushido as to live life in every breath. While I haven't mastered it
(yet) I feel that if I can bring a smile to someone's face or lighten someone's mood then I am doing some good here on this earth.
I don't know why I felt the need to post this but light and love to you all.