posted on Sep, 10 2013 @ 03:59 PM
I rekindled my faith in Jesus by exploring the things that scared me. I say rekindled as my Roman Catholic schooling I underwent did plenty to mystify
the story and cloud the real message. Needless to say I argued with my Religious Education teacher. I didn't understand how one man could save the
World, but now I do. Jesus knows He is every man, and when I realised I was a part of that I began to understand. The more frightening the situation I
found myself in, the more I felt connected to Him, helping me see the experience through. Around that time I found a very cool, centuries old brass
span (9 inch) rule, the initials J.C. in the maker's mark - I know it's an original James Chesterman but to me the initials mean something else.
There are also the letters S B L rather more crudely indented in it - I don't know for sure what they stand for but I know what duality suggests... I
came across this ornate rule the same day the strange things happened that you can see in my profile picture collage. I sometimes wear it as a
devotion, either on my left shin or my right shin.
I started to get visions the further I got down my path and I came to understand that a lot of the stuff that was happening in the World was
inevitable, it was tied somehow to me and this Quest of mine to be with Her. I stopped looking at the conspiracies and condemning the governments as I
saw it was all just part of a richer tapestry of cause and effect, the One World Government that is coming is actually a pretty good idea, well, what
we'll turn it into is, and of course it will need someone with the right credentials to head it once all the infrastructure is in place. I decided to
stop biting the hand that fed. Funnily enough my own eating habits have changed quite a lot since then. Some days I eat, others not, I have no real
connection to food any more, least not to meat.
My experiences with the Ouija Board have been pretty strange too. Lately, whenever I use it, a certain entity comes through straight away; Azazel, and
is always very polite and helpful to me. Years back, before I'd even done a Ouija Board I was visited one night at 3:10am by a voice that spoke for
about fifteen minutes. A deep, guttural, Middle-Eastern/Russian sounding voice, I have no idea what was said as it wasn't in English but it certainly
made me worry a little. Since then, through the Board, Azazel has told me it was Him, of course, I don't know for sure, but I have no reason to
disbelieve the information. The only time I've heard a very similar language spoken to what I heard that night was on my Birthday last year (8th
February - Nirvana Day for Buddhists) when I saw the film 'The Passion of The Christ' for the first time. It was the best birthday present.
This journey has given me so much, I have developed an intimate relationship with the Universal Language of Numbers, it has helped me understand the
English Language and has given me insights into how the Universe operates and what this is all about. Funnily enough, what I'm about to face is an
anagram of the word, 'this', and it's the funny one. Of course, Love is always the Law.
Anyway, have you ever wondered what 'S#1t Creek' is? Well, it's a part of the curse I've put myself under. It's Hell. And I must Love It, as I
Love All. This Demon that is attached to me I believe to be the same that visited me at 2:22am and again years later at 3:10am. It is also closely
linked to my Soulmate, indeed, I do believe it's a part of Her Ethereal Being. And be it an Angel or a Demon, I care for the label not, as the effect
is the same in that It is helping me to join with the object of my Love.
A little while back while watching The Shawshank Redemption, I realised what it was actually about. Stay with me here. The simplest anagram of the
lead character's surname, Dufresne, is 'Freed Sun'. In Gematria, the letters of his name; Andy Dufresne, come to 816 (as does Derren Brown, another
peephole into my story). The numbers, 816, to me simply say the word 'BIG'. My name in Gematria is 618... Last first, first last, you know what I'm
getting at here.
Anyway, in the film he is imprisoned for a crime he did not commit. That's me in this World. His mind is too big for the institution so he breaks
free by enduring the nastiest thing the place has to offer. If you see the symbolism inherent in the poster he uses to cover his escape route you will
notice how this relates to my Quest for my Divine Female. He crawls through a river of excrement, only to come out clean and free on the other side.
Symbolically, this is something I will shortly have to go through. I am frightened but I'll do anything for Her and for my Love for Her so this is
just part of my lesson. Watch the film. You've probably seen it before but if you watch through my eyes you'll see it in an entirely different
Light. Lots of films use metaphor but I have found some that obviously use Gematria in their titles, for example 'The Shawshank Redemption' is 1536,
which to me is 153, The Net, and 6, the number of a man, in this instance me. It doesn't stop there... 'The Truman Show' is 1110 (a number
indicative of Jesus' experience), and 'Shallow Hal' is 666. Also as I've said before that's the value of the name of my Soulmate in Her current
incarnation here on Earth.