posted on Sep, 8 2013 @ 02:05 PM
And, by the way, I didn't put into my post that I'm smart to seem like a smart butt, I put that in there referencing my need to almost put out my
résumé before being judged...like, not wanting to be viewed as some nut job.
There have been many strange experiences in my life but they're not so clean cut as to identify a main area of absolute weirdness. After viewing the
trailer for the movie I mentioned earlier, I felt a sense of panic that I can't describe. I was nearly incapacitated for months; I couldn't sleep
nor eat and I felt scared of everything. I went to the doctor for my attacks but I wasn't honest about the cause..thus, I didn't really get any
better. But, I did realize a memory that I had never processed before. It was, and continues to be, hazy but It was the first event I remembered that
made me feel loopy.
Before college, I joined the US Army for the GI BIll and attended basic training in the 90s. Fireguard was a duty assigned to all of us and, for some
period during the night, we took turns standing watch over the bay to make sure everything was ok. There was a DS also scheduled for the night and it
was a duty that no one looked forward to as we were already on limited sleep. Not getting up or going to sleep on duty was a no no. Anyone who's ever
been to Basic can attest to the trouble you would get into for dereliction of duty. Twice before, someone had fallen asleep and the Drill Sergeant on
duty has come up nearly immediately and smoked all of us.
The night I had duty, I was assigned a detail at 2a.m. I remember being awakened and then going down the stairs to sign in with the DS. On the way
back up the stairs, I remember this very blue-white light and thinking it was very unusual.
I woke up at 5a.m. In my bunk and with the DS flipping on the lights. Fireguard hadn't woke us up and I thought I was in huge trouble. So, I didn't
ask the DS about the duty. I did, however, ask the girl who had it after me. She hadn't awakened and was freaked out that we had overslept...so it
wasn't just me. Over a week later, we had it again and looked at the date in the book...all the sign in logs were available...and saw my signature as
checking in but never signing out or coming down with my replacement.
So, maybe I went back to sleep. Fine. But why didn't anyone get into trouble? Did the DS go to sleep and just didn't say anything? Not likely since
he had to sign the log over to his replacement first thing in the morning. I don't know, but when I saw the trailer to the movie and the scene with
the light coming down to hit him, felt like throwing up and panic and fear set in. That episode was the first thing I remembered but definitely not
the last nor the strangest. Even now, I feel woozy when I remember, or try to remember, the event. I wish I had some real memory but I don't, so I'm
sorry that my first post isn't some glamorous story that can change the world. What I do want, though, is to open up about things and see if anyone
else has experiences that are similar.
That took a lot out of me to write. While it wasn't the grandest, strangest thing to identify with, it was the first memory that changed me
dramatically. Later, I remembered earlier and clearer memories but this is the incident that scarred me for life.