reply to post by infoseeker26754
Hello mister inexplicable profile picture dude.
I keep wondering if that thang is a potato,
a mutated watermelon, or what?
I can relate.
For about 48 years now (I'm 52), I've wanted to find
one intelligent person, and to do something worthwhile
Somehow, that has never happened.
Everything I've ever accomplished has been alone..
started a 1 man dot.com --- wild success .. completely
Taught myself computer stuff out of old manuals laying
around.. no classes of any kind.. all alone.
Been supporting my family as sole breadwinner for 16
years.. and the people they care about too....
Since I've never managed to interest anyone in anything
that I'm interested in, I was reduced to attempting to
decode reality and "what makes it all work" .. not so
much for any reason.. other than not to be alone..
Yah, I went looking for 'god' or 'the source'.. just to
have someone to hang with...
7 billion humans.. and I chase after quantum singularity
fields in a hyper pentacle arrangement to look for the
original asshole who started all this... and found that
asshole.. and have finally learned to love that asshole.
(is still an asshole but I forgive her)
Can't tell you the massive hours and ridiculous pain
I've put myself through to learn what I've learned,
and to become what I've become..
Just not to be alone..
And here I am today, realizing that people only want
the next step to their life story that they tell themselves
and others.. I don't think that most people would know
what to do with themselves, if 'god' showed up and
made mad love to them.
They'd want to go back to chasing after aliens and
GM-modified toxic food and to argue about why
their conception of X is so superior to everyone
else's conceptions of X.
Turns out, I'm no different than anyone else..
I just wanted to take that 'next step' in my
story.. granted it was a big step... took
almost 50 years to take one step..
And that step was only meaningful to me..
and nobody else... i'm just the same
as everybody else.. all fixated on my own
and in a human sense, totally and completely
alone. I'm not sure I even want to not be
alone anymore.. it's all I know...
My entire body feels plugged in.. and I don't
feel alone anymore.. in a way I can't even
properly describe. Maybe this will turn out
great.. or maybe I'll just tingle all over
until I die... the jury is still out..
But I won't delude myself.. I'm sitting here
alone and talking to a dude with a mutated
sweet potato picture..
Just saying hi!
(waving at mutated watermelon dude or dudette)