posted on Aug, 24 2013 @ 10:43 PM
I was born into a Christian family, and became a Christian at the age of 5.
Coming to Christ was something that was fairly natural to me, having grown up with a knowledge of Him and His Word, but what prompted the actual
decision was a dream that I had.
I dreamed one night that I was taken to heaven, to the throne room. Jesus sat there on a throne, in judgement over the world. He looked at me and
said "depart from me, I never knew you."
I... plummeted. Straight into hell.
The dream terrified me... and I gave my life to Christ.
Since that day... I've remained a believer, though not always remained faithful. I went through something of a crisis of faith when I was about 17.
I was in a leadership position in the church (teaching kids aged 4-6), and a lot of stuff went down that was really hurtful. I wasn't treated well
by the church. They realized in time that I was right about certain things, but by then it was too late... and I'd actually been asked to leave. I
won't go into more detail than there here - that's another story for another day.
Anyway. I got married at 20... to a girl who had always appeared to be a "good Christian girl". Turns out she wasn't. She was horribly abusive.
I had a daughter with her, and was married to her for 5 years. Eventually her abuse started to turn from me to our daughter - so I left, and took
her with me. Again, long story - but that detail is enough for now.
Through all of these things, I've had crises of faith. Opportunities to either stick with what I believe, or reject it. Times when I was so
desperately lost, lonely and afraid that... in all honesty, I wanted to (in the words of Job's wife) "curse God and die!".
I didn't - and, I suspect, not because of my own faithfulness, but because God is faithful. He brought me through everything, and has restored to me
all that I lost. A wife. A family. A loving relationship.
...and while not everyone in this life will go through the ups and downs I have... and while many will go through far worse... there are few things
that can put life into perspective like spending time sleeping on the street in the rain, having been kicked out of your own home by an abusive
Either way, throughout my life, God has always remained faithful, constant, and ever involved, through the good and the bad. ...and to pre-empt those
who will argue as much...
Faith - my faith, is not and cannot be merely an emotive response to life and its circumstances. My faith is rooted not only in belief, but in
evidence and in logic. The Bible is not a book that cannot be tested; likewise God Himself is not absent. If you're reading this and you discount
my experience, fair enough. ...but as the Bible says, "seek the Lord while He may be found; call upon Him while He is near." Now is that time; now
is the opportunity. Test. Search. Think critically. Think logically.
You think the Bible is a fairy tale? Investigate Biblical archaeology.
You think Christ has nothing to offer? Investigate the book of John.
...and so on, and so forth. The Bible itself clarifies: "If only in this life we have hope in Christ, we are to be pitied, more than all men." If
it's false, ditch it. But if it's not... then it's the most worthwhile thing you will ever do.
Search to prove it false.
Search to prove it true.
take your pick - but trust me... it's worth finding out for yourself.