reply to post by ExquisitExamplE
Thank you for the kind words, and youre welcome.
I wonder, what materials have you studied that have brought you to these conclusions?
Studying is extremely difficult for me. I am in my nature drawn to a very macrocosmic perspective of things, and when asked to focus my attention on
the microcosmic, which is what study demands, I just cannot do it. As you might imagine, school was hell for me, and college was a whole 'nother level
of that tedious academic hell.
What I think it comes down to, is a "left" brain "right" brain perspective to life. Study, as I see the idea of "study", is very left brain oriented,
which I am not and have never really been. I dont really truly learn that way either. I learn intuitively, which is hard to describe the mechanics of
So Ive studied nothing.
Ive picked up some broad, general ideas here and there over time, and changed them into ideas all my own and moved on, but Ive never delved into a
single individuals thoughts, or a channeled sources writings, or a science line like quantum mechanics, or listened to a persons ideas on reality in
depth, or going deep into a religious dogma, etc.
My journey has really been a solitary one, generally speaking. What I can see of the truth has been, as far as I can tell right now, completely
through observation of reality, and questioning everything.
After years of constant contemplation, both conscious and subconscious, what I know now just popped up, really.
It really is strange... but every couple years or so, there will be a span of several days where certain things spontaneously become self-evident. I
can only assume that whatever processing was going on during those years of constant contemplation, has completed, and the self-evident truths, the
end result thats been output into my conscious mind. Its like a CPU thats asked to do some ridiculous math problem thatll take years to complete,
would be a good analogy for what I think goes on.
Perhaps what makes this possible is that I cannot compartmentalize anything, even with great effort in attempting to do so. When something comes up in
my mind, its there, and will not go away until it is resolved in totality. Its literally there all the time, night and day, awake or asleep,
constantly present, and there is no rest from it. And dont think theres just one thing being tended to at a time... oh no, its everything, all the
time, unyielding to anything but the conclusion. Depending on your outlook, this can have some very severe drawbacks.
The nature of reality is one of those things that, using the CPU metaphor, was and is assigned a top priority to give processing preference to. That
really happened after I acknowledged that everything that was taught to me early on, religion wise, didnt make much sense in the way it was taught,
and nobody has a good answer to strange questions. Without that fundamental base to be secure in on a spiritual level, what the real truth actually
was became a top priority, and since then it always has been.
So in one sense Ive studied nothing. But then in another, I study everything.
Reality is the material I study. Everything around us I study and constantly examine, with nothing left out, and always asking "why".
Ive gotten to wherever I am by doing that. Eventually the answer to "why" becomes "because it is", not in a cop out sense, but because you come to a
point where causality ceases to be applicable, because what it depends on, time, because less and less meaningful as times true nature as an
artificial construct becomes evident.
Ok, thats a lot more wordy than I planned this to be, so sorry about that
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