I have had OBE's and other experiences which I found impossible to describe or communicate. But one experience has left me utterly ignorant ever
since. I will explain it VERY briefly:
One morning, upon waking up and still in sleep paralysis, I attempted to slip out of my body. Typically this consists of tremendous vibrations and
body numbness , which enables me to phase out of my body or dissolve out. But on this morning, while simultaneously being aware of the activities in
my house, when the vibrations came on, I saw what could only be described as a portal through my eyelids.
The portal got bigger until I was now looking out of the eyes of someone upstairs in my apartment building. 'Being John Malkovich' sums it up pretty
well. She was looking out of her window, down at the trees in our courtyard. Except my version of her eyesight was extremely vivid. I could see every
single leaf, grain of dirt and blade of grass. I became so aware of the experience, my mind started processing it and my body began to wake. Portal
view...gone. Eyes open.
I began thinking, if I can leave my body, and collocate into other people while still being aware of myself..what am I? I'm obviously not my body, and
my mind has since erased that belief. But what am I?
That's when I understood the meaning of consciousness. That is what I am. Upon deeper introspection, I realized that EVERYBODY is this consciousness.
Consciousness seems to localize itself in every single human body. It experiences life from that body/mind. That each of us is a localized and
modified consciousness which, when out of the body, is ONE consciousness. But it is experienced through our individual and unique minds. We believe
that we are our only our minds and our bodies but we are not.
We are experiencing this world through an Avatar. And experiencing the World, seems to be the only purpose to 'life' as an individual being. That
every other meaning and definition we give life, is something we cook up in our own minds.
In my travels, it seems to me that being alive IS the purpose of life. That each of us, It seems, is the result of a consciousness which endlessly
desires to experience itself. So perhaps, the purpose of your life is being fulfilled every second of the day. Even though it doesn't feel or look
I say 'perhaps' and 'seems' because after that experience, I have a hard time believing that I know anything at all.
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