posted on Aug, 23 2013 @ 04:40 AM
This is going to be quite long as I am describing a 10 day course and what led me there, so be warned!
As I have stated some time ago in my only other post, I had some strange experiences with what can only be described as strange beings or ET's
visiting me and witnessed by my wife. The reason I mention that here is because shortly after these experiences occurred I got a strong desire to
learn to meditate. Now this thread is not about discussing my weird experiences outside of vipassana but I am happy to answer any questions relating
to that via pm.
Let me take you back to before these experiences, during my time at university, I studied at Leeds in the UK and during my Zoology degree I suffered
from a little pre exam stress. I tried to learn meditation but given my lack of discipline I failed to learn even the basics and I put the whole
meditation experience in the bin, along with new age garbage and that most annoying of trends, the love and lighters....
So this was how it stood for me until about 3-4 years ago, I shunned all this stuff because it was for lazy do gooders who I often see doing nothing
at all! So then it begins, lights in the sky, strange dreams/experiences and a strong desire to learn to meditate. I ignored it for some time and then
I thought "hey" what the hell, it can't be any weirder than whats happening already". So given my previous failings years before and my distrust
of new age fancy, I find a technique that is solely based on working with your own sensation and feeling. No fairy rainbows or golden stairways! Then
I looked through the information on line and nearly fell off my chair when I realised they offer 10 days silent retreats and only ask a donation from
you if you can afford one. I am thinking ok whats the catch? these things seem to cost $1000's normally. Anyway I decide to book in, I take the time
from work and travel to Pomona in QLD Australia to experience 10 days of silence.
To be honest arriving at the retreat felt like I was walking into a prison, albeit a very pretty and quiet one. My entire mind was screaming at me to
get out, leave, go to the coast and stay in a hotel for a week or so, no one will ever know! I was close to running but I managed to shut those
thoughts up and signed in. Well what can I say, my room was clean, the people seemed a bit airy fairy but what do you expect? Silence starts on the
first evening, you learn a technique which is basically observing your natural breath. I thought this is ok, I can do this...However when it got to
day 3 I have to admit I was getting a little sick of sitting cross legged with a very stiff back observing my breath through my nostrils. My mind
screamed at me to jump the fence and get fish and chips, a steak anything other than vegetarian food (although it was very good food).
On the evening of day 3 we were taught to move our focus from breathing to sensation and work on the area beneath the nose. Almost immediately I
noticed what seemed like ants or ice cold electricity moving across the area. I was fascinated and became very diligent at working with this new
sensation (I thinkI was just relieved to have something else besides my breath to focus on). Well this went on until the evening of the 4th day where
we started my first ever experience of vipassana. Well what can I say, everything just went nuts, I start working at the top of my head and all of a
sudden a wave of sensation just rolled down my body, followed by another and then another. Wow was I really meditating, had I actually achieved
something in the weird and wonderful world of meditation??
Well this sensation was with me each time I sat down to meditate which was about 11 hours a day btw. By day 6 I was controlling these sensations and
could put my mind anywhere on my body and would sense a pin prick almost immediately. On the evening of the 6th day I was sitting in the hall
observing this sensation moving from my head to my feet and back again, and then all of a sudden a wave started at my feet and my head at the same
time and crossed at my waist. This continued, it got more and more intense and then "pop"........ All of a sudden I am somewhere else, I am
surrounded by balls of light and beneath me is a luminescent green grid. I have no body I am just light. I can feel my body buzzing a long way off and
it felt tiny and not really relevant. I was just floating around with these other balls of light, it was really weird and I have no idea what was
happening. All I know is that after a couple of minutes I started thinking "how do I get back"....
Well I had no idea, I panicked, then I hear a voice (probably my own), saying 'open you eyes!". I'm floating around thinking "I don't have any
eyes!". Honestly I really freaked out a bit and after a few more moments I forced my eyes open. I was shocked and disorientated, nothing like this
had been discussed with us. That night I was woken by my body vibrating with incredible intensity, what is all that about?? The next day the sensation
I felt running up and down my body continued and didn't stop when I stopped meditating, it was just constant. I spent the next 2 days walking around
feeling like a 10 year old with the keys to a ferrari. I had no idea what was going on but I was fascinated.
On day 9 it all slowed down and became much more tolerable, I would even say very pleasant and then that evening I experienced a peace I have only
ever experienced in subsequent retreats. It was just amazing, no constant chatter in my head, no wants, no needs, just being. For me that was a very
new experience, something that I would love to share with every person on this planet. I continue to practice Vipassana and take a 10 day retreat each
year, sometimes twice if I have the time.
I am sharing this experience so anyone who thinks like I did that they cannot learn to do something like this that they can if they try. It was
incredibly hard work the 1st time, probably the hardest 10 days of my life (tragedy aside).
Thanks for your time folks