reply to post by 2x Helix
I can relate to your post in a major way. While I know we each have our own unique story, what you wrote sounds a lot like something I would have
written when I was around 20. I'm 28 now. I grew up in a similar environment, went to church and educated entirely in a Christian private school. I
accepted the Lord into my life as a child and was baptized at age 9 in the Jordan River. By 17, I was literally going to the bathroom and crying
during Bible classes. I was frustrated because my mind was flooded with thoughts like the thoughts you've expressed in your op. I was having an
extremely hard time coming to terms with what I had always believed, the general worldview held by my Christian peers and family. And it was painful.
When I was 20, I vividly remember telling my mom I was not a Christian.By 21, I was trying to let go of God when I realized he wouldn't let go of me.
I basically told God I wanted to know him, understand his word and believe in his love and be known by him. I don't know how to explain it, but the
Holy Spirit came to me. I started reading the Bible and it was as if I was reading it for the first time. Understanding came to me.
You are free to seek truth far and wide. Do not allow others, family included, tell you who God is
Why can’t the forgiveness demonstrated in the NT be applied from the very beginning of the OT? Why would Jesus ever say “I never knew you” to
any soul? Why am I told to stop bringing up God’s laws and actions in the OT and just focus on his son? I respond the latter with, “If the tree is
rotten, why would I consume its fruit?”
Israel is meant to be a light unto the Gentiles. The Jews and Israel exist to show that God's word is true, as spoken by the prophets, so it will be.
And so, for not making a commitment, for not surrendering my soul, for not having a full understanding of the spiritual realm and choosing to remain
being careful about this individual book and its authors, according to this same book, I am condemned to be tortured for all eternity. Not wiped out
of existence, flesh mutilated and charred forever and ever and ever.
You are free to seek truth far and wide. Do not allow others, family included, tell you who God is or what is spiritually required of you.
"My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
then you will understand the fear of the Lord
and find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
Discretion will protect you,
and understanding will guard you." Proverbs 2
Why can’t we simply love from the heart rather than adhere to the rules and stipulations of love according these ‘holy’ texts, whose followers
for ongoing millennia continue to fight over whose interpretation is right?
God's love does not expire upon death. His love endures forever. And no one, absolutely no one, has any business saying what is the "right"
interpretation of the Bible.
This is what it says:
"The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In
the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God,
that we may understand what God has freely given us. This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit,
expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are
foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned. The spiritual man makes judgments about all things, but he
himself is not subject to any man's judgment:
'For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him?' But we have the mind of Christ." 1 Corinthians 2
All the best to you.