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Originally posted by TrueBrit
reply to post by XxNightAngelusxX
I appreciate the thoughtfulness of your reply!
While I realise that on the face of it, walking away would seem the sensible option, one thing you cannot be aware of, is the state I was in before I met this woman.
Due to an appalling break up, I had spent about two years in a state of emotional collapse. Friends had noticed, and commented upon the fact that it seemed as if I had shut down in certain respects, become colder and less compassionate. I quite literally found myself loosing all ability to empathise with anyone outside of what I like to call, my little family of friends.
Upon meeting this woman, and getting to know her, my friends immediately noted that I seemed more like my old self, cracking jokes, handing out hugs with only the merest of provocation, singing, bouncing around like a mad bugger. In short, I got my soul back, and this woman was instrumental in that. I suppose you could say that for the moment, I am content to have feelings for her, because that is preferable to feeling nothing at all.
Perhaps that isnt the healthiest thing in the world, but unfortunately, this is the healthiest I have ever been in terms of my mental state, so I am loathe to rock this particular waterborne conveyance just at this moment
Originally posted by XxNightAngelusxX
You couldn't have picked a better title for this poem...
Your relationship with her monumentally helps you, AND holds you back. That really IS complicated, and even more complicated of an issue to try to resolve somehow.
Your friends are here for you all the way, Tru. Godspeed!